1) It's late at night. Traffic is easily maneuverable.
2) I'm borrowing the car not to play. I need to go print my resume for tomorrow's interview. But my friend is going to be back only at 11.30pm or even later.
3) Alternatively, I could take a bus and wait like an idiot there and come home by cab. Or to cab there and back when the time is up.
4) I admit I'm not very steady at driving. But it's night time. They'd rather I take bus. At last my mom gave up, say "take cab la take cab la".
5) Now. Reasonably speaking, did my logic fail me or am I being unreasonable?
6) I think I'm being unreasonable because I asked if I could borrow the car to drive to my friend's place (as I need to print out my resume) because
- I've got a driving license
- night time's traffic conditions is too congested and challenging for an amateur driver like me
- I'm an amateur driver unsuitable to drive a pickup
- Bukit Panjang is too far a place to drive to for an amateur driver like me. The journey is too perilous and difficult to negotiate and I will definite get into accidents should I venture through the dark straight roads alone.
7) My logic failed me because apparently taking a cab with midnight charges seems cheaper than letting me drive. Don't ever let me drive folks! I sure buang your car! Just ask my parents how bad and worrying my driving is.
8) Of course I'd like to enjoy the feeling of cruising on the roads but I think I'd do it in a vehicle more suitable for cruising. I am not fucking desperate to drive, or else I would take over my dad the chance that I fucking get despite the constant nagging of "go slow go slow!!!" when I'm travelling at 70km/h.
I just would enjoy the slight freedom of having the car and using it at times like this when I needed it most. Especially for occasions like today, printing of resumes for interview tomorrow and my friend isn't back till midnight and I can't foresee that I can turn to anyone for printing of stuff tomorrow.
9) Oh. You want to tell me I should have it printed during the day and/or earlier before? How about I tell you the motherfuckin agency called me at 7pm today telling me the employer would like to interview me tomorrow 5pm? My friends would be in camp/working/school so I deserved all the bad karma for seeking help today.
10) The conversation with my mom after asking for the car is redundant. Note that I've already explained all the above to her. Where I'm going to print. What time I'm going over. What time I'm coming back. What time my friend is coming back later today.
She said even she's in the car when I'm driving she's abit scared. Now that she's not in car she even more worried. My mom cares about me, no doubt =)
But she asked
- where I'm going to do the print
- why I don't want to take a bus there and why I'm still at home (at 10pm) I should take a bus there first and wait there (this is my fault I should have gone there earlier and wait there for 2 hours for my friend to come back)
- why cannot print tomorrow (I failed to let her understand the issue of timing. I needed it by tomorrow 4pm latest before the interview. I failed to let her understand people need to work/go camp/study during the day time and not like me bumming around at home)
- why there's a need to take a cab (due to the question "why cannot go tomorrow" erm anyone knows why must I take a cab to and fro my destination (note: Bukit Panjang) at 12 midnight?)
I can only come to a conclusion that she heard what I said but doesn't listen to me. Like always. As usual.
Lastly she said
"take cab la take cab la"
Wasting money on cabs to and fro is better than letting me drive.
Conclusion is, I can forever be trying to borrow the damn car and not succeeding, or I win the toto and buy a bloody car myself, or I can wait till I'm 30 years old with stable income and savings and own a car myself.
I mentioned in some older posts what my 2nd bro told me, and this incident reminded myself of that. “要驾车啊？自己买啰！我以前要借也是接不到.”
And I got my bloody license at 20 years old. Dear all. Don't bother getting a license if your parents especially disapprove you driving alone.
Sibei Dulan. It's the same old shit again.
I gonna take cab at night be it for official or non-official reasons so as not to disobey my parents.
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Someone send me this email. I'd just post it part of it here.
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Guy's point of view
> >This is very cute! And even written by a guy!
> You might agree with it, but when it actually happens 99% of girls don't realize it 'til it is too late
> > and that guy who did it is so frustrated that he has moved on to someone who will take notice.
> > From a guys point of view:
> > We don't care if you talk to other guys.
> We don't care if you're friends with other guys.
> But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room
> > and you jump up and tackle him without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.
> It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.
> > We don't care if a guy calls you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.
> > Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. that it can't wait till he morning.
> > Also, when we tell you you're pretty/beautiful/gorgeous/cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.
> Don't tell us we're wrong.We'll stop trying to convince you.
> > The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.
> > Yeah, you can quote me.
> > Don't be mad when we hold the door open.
> > Take Advantage of the mood im in.
> > LET US PAY FOR YOU! DON'T 'FEEL BAD'
> We enjoy doing it.
> It's expected.
> Smile and say 'thank you.'
> > Kiss us when no one's watching.
> If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.
> > You don't have to get dressed up for us.
> If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the
> > need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own.
> We like you for WHO you are and not WHAT you are.
> Honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's.
> Or my t-shirt and boxers, not all dolled up.
> > Don't take everything we say seriously.
> Sarcasm is a beautiful thing.
> See the beauty in it.
> Don't get angry easily.
> > Stop using magazines/media as your bible.
> Don't talk about how hott Morris Chesnutt, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us.
> It's boring, and we don't care.
> You have girlfriends for that.
> > Whatever happened to the word 'handsome'/'beautiful'.
> I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with 'Hey handsome!' instead of 'Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy' or whatever else you can think of.
> On the other hand im not sayin i wouldn't like it either.
> > Girls: I cannot stress this enough: IF YOU AREN'T BEING TREATED RIGHT BY A GUY, DON'T WAIT FOR HIM TO CHANGE.
> DITCH HIS SORRY DISGRACE-TO-THE-MALE-POPULATION ASS, AND FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL TREAT YOU WITH UTTER RESPECT
> Someone who will honor your morals.
> Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.
> Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.
> Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.
> Someone who will stop what theyre doing just to look you in the eyes....and say 'i love you' ..........AND ACTUALLY MEAN IT!
> > Give the nice guys a chance
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Don't play with a young child who's with his mother and grandmother, because the grandmother will refer you to the child as uncle or AUNTIE. =)
"你在跟AUNTIE玩啊?"=)
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Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Saturday, June 21, 2008
Curry Favor: To seek or gain favor by fawning or flattery
For those who think they love Japanese curry but have never been to Curry Favour, THINK AGAIN.
For those who wants to go but never had the chance, call me.
For those who had been there and die-also-want to go back, call me.
For those who are excited by the pictures of the food (er, if it was my picture, then...), and want to visit the place, call me.
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A twice a year outing =) We set foot on this place:
The menu!
Great ambience, especially before the meal times. It's rather conducive for conversations. Once it reaches the meal times, people started flooding in the restaurant as if there's free food served.
Me. I have the ability of not knowing that I was being taken picture of.
I still can't decide between a curry stew or katsu curry. And death by chocolate or Matcha Cheesecake-ala-mode. And the drinks. Man, all of them looked so good it's tough making a choice yannoe?
The entrees come with either miso soup or a salad. Oh well, I wished they let me have both though. HMMMMM.....
Close up, close up! See the corn kernels? Nope, it's nothing special. It's the salad dressing. I remember tasting it at Tonkichi before. But till now what it actually is remains a mystery to me.
Hot Chocolate! No, I didn't order this, as much as I loved chocolate. I wanted to get the iced chocolate from JCO Donuts at Raffles City's basement. Sigh. Sold out everytime. EVERY SINGLE TIME. (I was contemplating to get the matcha milkshake but.... my dessert...)
swirl swirl chocolate swirl~~~~
This, is a godlike item. It looks like fried mussels from MOS burger dunchathink? But no. Introducing the 'Stuffed Mushrooms'! Button mushrooms stuffed with mashed seafood (prawns? fish? squid?), dipped in batter and fried till golden brown. OMFG. You gotta taste it to believe it.
Comes with 3 sauces too! Godlike!
Here's the highlight of the day. Pork stew! However, it is damn good. I repeat. IT IS DAMN GOOD. The meat is tender. Very tender. I thought it will be tough to chew because stews I've tasted so far were like that. I ordered the spicy version and I thank myself(GODLIKE) for that. As the regular version tasted abit bland, not too sweet though, to my liking. I don't like those super sweet curries which tasted like those convenient japanese curries.
This ungodlike picture is not taken by me.
Seriously, are you sure you are not hungry just by looking at this?
Close up! This is a godlike picture taken by me!
Are you very sure? Seriously the serving is quite big. But I still polished off the rice as I don't wanna waste the curry. OMG I can imagine the taste in my mouth now.
And this godlike picture too!
Fish Cheese Katsu! It's a nice alternative if you don't feel like eating pok(i can't resist misspelling this) or chee-kennn~!(come ah! you not happy issit want to fight ar? Chee-kennn~~!). I digressed. But, I can imagine how the pok cheese katsu taste, the cheese oozing out, the curry over it, omg.......
Apple crumble-ala-mode. A slice of warm apple crumble served with a scoop of vanilla icecream. Quite decent! Maybe I prefer Gelare's version better and I get to choose the flavour of the ice-cream. But I didn't order this for myself.
The matcha cheesecake-ala-mode. The cheesecake reminds me of nonya kueh or agar agar. The top layer being the cheese(kueh like texture), the second layer being the red bean (WOOHOO! agar agar like texture) and the bottom layer being the green tea flavoured kueh agar agar mixed texture. And of course there's a biscuity base~~ Ok la, quite decent... BUT~~~~~~~~~~~
I order one, of course godlike~
The matcha ice cream is GODLIKE, and so I've heard curry favour is famous for the matcha ice cream... smooth and creamy texture with the fragrance of matcha....YUM YUM~~
Total bill comes up to be about $84 inclusive of service charge and GST. Seriously with food this good and good ambience, you can't really complain about the price. It's 1 appetizer + 2 entrees + 2 desserts + 1 beverage mind you.
Well this is the adventures of the 1-year-2-times-outing!
The end.
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Kotek discovered dopey songs again!!
Very... yeee moh lyrics i feel..
Erm, I can't find the official vid, but this is as dope!
Skillet Lyrics
The Last Night Lyrics
This night is so long when everything's wrong
If you give me your hand and I'll help you hold on.
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EDITTED:
Ooops i found a live version. Christian rock band, i know, but i choose to relate the song to something else.
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I'm free.
For those who wants to go but never had the chance, call me.
For those who had been there and die-also-want to go back, call me.
For those who are excited by the pictures of the food (er, if it was my picture, then...), and want to visit the place, call me.
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A twice a year outing =) We set foot on this place:
The menu!
Great ambience, especially before the meal times. It's rather conducive for conversations. Once it reaches the meal times, people started flooding in the restaurant as if there's free food served.
Me. I have the ability of not knowing that I was being taken picture of.
I still can't decide between a curry stew or katsu curry. And death by chocolate or Matcha Cheesecake-ala-mode. And the drinks. Man, all of them looked so good it's tough making a choice yannoe?
The entrees come with either miso soup or a salad. Oh well, I wished they let me have both though. HMMMMM.....
Close up, close up! See the corn kernels? Nope, it's nothing special. It's the salad dressing. I remember tasting it at Tonkichi before. But till now what it actually is remains a mystery to me.
Hot Chocolate! No, I didn't order this, as much as I loved chocolate. I wanted to get the iced chocolate from JCO Donuts at Raffles City's basement. Sigh. Sold out everytime. EVERY SINGLE TIME. (I was contemplating to get the matcha milkshake but.... my dessert...)
swirl swirl chocolate swirl~~~~This, is a godlike item. It looks like fried mussels from MOS burger dunchathink? But no. Introducing the 'Stuffed Mushrooms'! Button mushrooms stuffed with mashed seafood (prawns? fish? squid?), dipped in batter and fried till golden brown. OMFG. You gotta taste it to believe it.
Comes with 3 sauces too! Godlike!Here's the highlight of the day. Pork stew! However, it is damn good. I repeat. IT IS DAMN GOOD. The meat is tender. Very tender. I thought it will be tough to chew because stews I've tasted so far were like that. I ordered the spicy version and I thank myself(GODLIKE) for that. As the regular version tasted abit bland, not too sweet though, to my liking. I don't like those super sweet curries which tasted like those convenient japanese curries.
This ungodlike picture is not taken by me. Seriously, are you sure you are not hungry just by looking at this?
Close up! This is a godlike picture taken by me!Are you very sure? Seriously the serving is quite big. But I still polished off the rice as I don't wanna waste the curry. OMG I can imagine the taste in my mouth now.
And this godlike picture too!Fish Cheese Katsu! It's a nice alternative if you don't feel like eating pok(i can't resist misspelling this) or chee-kennn~!(come ah! you not happy issit want to fight ar? Chee-kennn~~!). I digressed. But, I can imagine how the pok cheese katsu taste, the cheese oozing out, the curry over it, omg.......
Apple crumble-ala-mode. A slice of warm apple crumble served with a scoop of vanilla icecream. Quite decent! Maybe I prefer Gelare's version better and I get to choose the flavour of the ice-cream. But I didn't order this for myself.
The matcha cheesecake-ala-mode. The cheesecake reminds me of nonya kueh or agar agar. The top layer being the cheese(kueh like texture), the second layer being the red bean (WOOHOO! agar agar like texture) and the bottom layer being the green tea flavoured kueh agar agar mixed texture. And of course there's a biscuity base~~ Ok la, quite decent... BUT~~~~~~~~~~~
I order one, of course godlike~The matcha ice cream is GODLIKE, and so I've heard curry favour is famous for the matcha ice cream... smooth and creamy texture with the fragrance of matcha....YUM YUM~~
Total bill comes up to be about $84 inclusive of service charge and GST. Seriously with food this good and good ambience, you can't really complain about the price. It's 1 appetizer + 2 entrees + 2 desserts + 1 beverage mind you.
Well this is the adventures of the 1-year-2-times-outing!
The end.
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Kotek discovered dopey songs again!!
Very... yeee moh lyrics i feel..
Erm, I can't find the official vid, but this is as dope!
Skillet Lyrics
The Last Night Lyrics
This night is so long when everything's wrong
If you give me your hand and I'll help you hold on.
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EDITTED:
Ooops i found a live version. Christian rock band, i know, but i choose to relate the song to something else.
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I'm free.
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Sooper Recharged!!!
You casted the gray skies of mine away.
never felt better so instantaneously. =) like 3 in 1 coffee just add water lol.
(>_<)
never felt better so instantaneously. =) like 3 in 1 coffee just add water lol.
(>_<)
Monday, June 16, 2008
nice
caught a cold i guess.
had the pains before the run and now....
小朋友们晚上睡觉时记得盖被哦！叔叔有练过的。。。
stop beating.
now.
no one will know.
there as you lie.
and sleep.
had the pains before the run and now....
小朋友们晚上睡觉时记得盖被哦！叔叔有练过的。。。
stop beating.
now.
no one will know.
there as you lie.
and sleep.
Sunday, June 15, 2008
It's starting to sink in.
The feeling I should feel.
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Hmm i'm not having fever
but i'm like having pains all over.
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Remember to smile later on.
Remember to smile when you are outside.
=)
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old song i heard over radio today.
没有承诺
却被你抓得更紧
没有了你
我的世界雨下个不停
我还听见
你的声音
轻轻芸饶着我的心
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我还不能
接受分离
就是永远不能在一起
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Hmm i'm not having fever
but i'm like having pains all over.
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Remember to smile later on.
Remember to smile when you are outside.
=)
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old song i heard over radio today.
没有承诺
却被你抓得更紧
没有了你
我的世界雨下个不停
特别的爱给特别的你
你让我越来越不相信自己
我还听见
你的声音
轻轻芸饶着我的心
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我还不能
接受分离
就是永远不能在一起
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她真的已经告诉你了
A: I think we'll just leave it at here.
B: I understand. =)
graphic stolen from min's blog
B: I understand. =)
我。
追寻。
没了。
价值?
没了。
原因？
没用。
我。
graphic stolen from min's blog
Saturday, June 14, 2008
B is B no more, and A isn't as well.
=) i'm fine.
the kfc toasted wrap is teh nice! woohoo! but i think i wouldnt have it anytime soon i guess. i can feel my taf building up.
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hmm i need a flask.
my notebook's almost full too.
wah i feel like ktv but running low on dough.
the ferrero rondnoir is simply timely. glad that i bought it! keeping my spirits high@@woohoo~~
i must watch my weight le~~~~ ah!!! so many chocos!!!! OH ANOTHER SPOIL OF THE DAY YESTERDAY IS THE ORANGE FLAVOURED CHOCOLATE!
i din really eat OFC and like it because it's milk choco. BUT THIS PARTICULAR ONE I BOUGHT...*DRUMROLLS* IS 75% DARK CHOCO AND STILL ORANGE FLAVOURED!!!!
im guessing there's some serious noir buffs out there inventing such stuffs.
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PC show was okay i guess, as crowded as usual. im glad i haf meiz + kotek as company this time. HTC TOUCH DIAMOND IS TEH ROXXOR~!
i remember last year quite loser/loner where i went to the show myself, go visit a friend who is working at the bookfair and saw my fellow loner there LOL who is none other than Bert. I guess he won't be in the club after this year heh!!!!!
caught up with the poly guys as usual~~ well... heh....
the movie ending is...
heart warming.
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Random Pics!
I guess this was what I have feared and came true and sorta what I expected. "till I hear from A personally." It really did.
I've got acute sixth sense i think.
and the special lv3 ability to step on her toes.
但你说
i only want to be your friend
做个朋友
我在
你心中只是just a friend
不是情人
我感激你对我这样的坦白
但我给你的爱暂时收不回来
but i can live with that, i can be just a friend =) always, hee.
just that i hope that we won't be awkward even while chatting over msn. ^-^
sorry for making you feel uncomfy, was never my intention, but im sorry it turned out like that. and also for being so thick skinned to have appeared oblivious to your ever subtle signs.
i was just running away from the inevitable. it caught up eventually. i know i shouldn't be at the party at all. making things awkward for you. so that you'd even need to half ignore me and so you said.
can't we just talk? oh msn.
as long as you're confortable with it.
我的世界将被摧毁
也许颓废也是另一种美。
我的世界已被摧毁
颓废是一种美。
我已被摧毁
颓废是美。
摧毁
颓废。
Friday the 13th, 11:47am
突然的找我,好久你没有主动PM我了，是好事吗?
Friday the 13th, 11:49am
"i just didn't feel gd half ignoring u, but it was really a tad awkward."
Friday the 13th, 12:03noon
"i think the way we catch up on msn is fine as it is
let's just leave it at this ok?"
这就是我在等待的，当你说‘就保持现状，msn就好’，以意味着我在你的世界已是多余的。
说是松了口气，倒不如是晴天来的一阵霹雳。
是突然的。
却不是偶然。
是意料之中。
却不是容易接受的。
"but i think its better for our friendship as well
or else would u have preferred me to take the 'ignore' route"
i guess i can take it if you'd really do it. i've been through it some years ago i think.
你所说的餐约，我想，亦不会实现。
谢谢你在我生命的篇章中留下些许的色彩。
刻骨铭心。
sorry for making you feel uncomfy,
it was never my intention,
but im sorry it had to turn out like that.
intention or not, i have caused you much troubles. it's me i agree.
this time i didn't even need to try.
and also for being so thick skinned to have appeared oblivious to your ever subtle signs. as i said. earlier on.
i think i am repeating things but... ...
我猜
你早就想要说明白
我觉得自己好失败
从天堂掉落到深渊
多无奈
i guess no amount of self pity will change the outcome any.
i guess there's no difference, 100 to 88 to 140 to 96.
the looks part failed, and the person is the problem.
just keep on looking. and look.
and look.
只有‘look'的份.
and that's it.
just 'look'. at others.
at her.
the same thing happens, over and over again.
didn't need to even try hard.
didn't even need to try.
爱，远离我。
当我翻开辞海，我却找不到‘爱’。
my experiences tell me that, “痛到不能再痛，就感觉不到痛了。”
不过这次，我会忍。
一杯就好。
麻醉了比较好睡。
不痛了之后就够了。
all these are proven true. yet again.
1) not good looking at all, failure of 1st impression and all the others
2) not financially independent
3) nothing to like about, no talents (can't play musical instrument or play sports really well or even ride a bike)
4) can't even do the ending right, saying the wrong words even at the end
5) over imposing presence
6) a good friend but that's all i'd ever be
7) different kinda status. door doesn't meet door
8) thick headed to act oblivious to all the obvious signs
i need to stop whining soon. if not the same thing will happen again. as it did. again.
stop whining about this stop whining about this.
just stop.
hold my breath.
A and B is no more. =) but hope we're still friends =)
>_< says (12:20 PM):
erm A~
>_< says (12:20 PM):
seriously dun worry abt it anyway
>_< says (12:20 PM):
er
>_< says (12:20 PM):
anymore
>_< says (12:20 PM):
i noe what ur saying
>_< says (12:21 PM):
hope ya dun haf to worry every time we chat here
>_< says (12:21 PM):
maybe a pity tht the meal will not take place
>_< says (12:21 PM):
but no worries
>_< says (12:21 PM):
take care!
i'd been in the sky since i met you. hit the ground a few times but i got back up there anyway because i want to present only my smiles to you. not that it is worth anything, but it just formed the minute i know you're there.
only when the frequency of falling increases, then i realised the reason why.
i fell to see you again.
i fell.
for you.
and this maybe the last time i'd ever get the chance to fall again.
i thank you for getting me over the last fall, and for putting me back down now where i first looked up then to see you, again.
let me wallow in this for awhile.
it's a piece of my life i'd never get back.......
4 songs here guess what songs????
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雨 不停落下来 花 怎麼都不开
尽管我细心灌溉 你说不爱就不爱 我一个人 欣赏悲哀
只要你能愉快
你要我听这一首歌 用这首歌离开我
是不是上帝在我眼前遮住了帘
忘了掀开
为什麽爱上你的人是我
为什麽一厢情愿的人会难过
为什麽对你舍不得 总是我
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我还能笑的。=）
I still can smile. =)
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the kfc toasted wrap is teh nice! woohoo! but i think i wouldnt have it anytime soon i guess. i can feel my taf building up.
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hmm i need a flask.
my notebook's almost full too.
wah i feel like ktv but running low on dough.
the ferrero rondnoir is simply timely. glad that i bought it! keeping my spirits high@@woohoo~~
i must watch my weight le~~~~ ah!!! so many chocos!!!! OH ANOTHER SPOIL OF THE DAY YESTERDAY IS THE ORANGE FLAVOURED CHOCOLATE!
i din really eat OFC and like it because it's milk choco. BUT THIS PARTICULAR ONE I BOUGHT...*DRUMROLLS* IS 75% DARK CHOCO AND STILL ORANGE FLAVOURED!!!!
im guessing there's some serious noir buffs out there inventing such stuffs.
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PC show was okay i guess, as crowded as usual. im glad i haf meiz + kotek as company this time. HTC TOUCH DIAMOND IS TEH ROXXOR~!
i remember last year quite loser/loner where i went to the show myself, go visit a friend who is working at the bookfair and saw my fellow loner there LOL who is none other than Bert. I guess he won't be in the club after this year heh!!!!!
caught up with the poly guys as usual~~ well... heh....
the movie ending is...
heart warming.
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Random Pics!
I guess this was what I have feared and came true and sorta what I expected. "till I hear from A personally." It really did.
I've got acute sixth sense i think.
and the special lv3 ability to step on her toes.
但你说
i only want to be your friend
做个朋友
我在
你心中只是just a friend
不是情人
我感激你对我这样的坦白
但我给你的爱暂时收不回来
but i can live with that, i can be just a friend =) always, hee.
just that i hope that we won't be awkward even while chatting over msn. ^-^
sorry for making you feel uncomfy, was never my intention, but im sorry it turned out like that. and also for being so thick skinned to have appeared oblivious to your ever subtle signs.
i was just running away from the inevitable. it caught up eventually. i know i shouldn't be at the party at all. making things awkward for you. so that you'd even need to half ignore me and so you said.
can't we just talk? oh msn.
as long as you're confortable with it.
我的世界将被摧毁
也许颓废也是另一种美。
我的世界已被摧毁
颓废是一种美。
我已被摧毁
颓废是美。
摧毁
颓废。
Friday the 13th, 11:47am
突然的找我,好久你没有主动PM我了，是好事吗?
Friday the 13th, 11:49am
"i just didn't feel gd half ignoring u, but it was really a tad awkward."
Friday the 13th, 12:03noon
"i think the way we catch up on msn is fine as it is
let's just leave it at this ok?"
这就是我在等待的，当你说‘就保持现状，msn就好’，以意味着我在你的世界已是多余的。
说是松了口气，倒不如是晴天来的一阵霹雳。
是突然的。
却不是偶然。
是意料之中。
却不是容易接受的。
"but i think its better for our friendship as well
or else would u have preferred me to take the 'ignore' route"
i guess i can take it if you'd really do it. i've been through it some years ago i think.
你所说的餐约，我想，亦不会实现。
谢谢你在我生命的篇章中留下些许的色彩。
刻骨铭心。
sorry for making you feel uncomfy,
it was never my intention,
but im sorry it had to turn out like that.
intention or not, i have caused you much troubles. it's me i agree.
this time i didn't even need to try.
and also for being so thick skinned to have appeared oblivious to your ever subtle signs. as i said. earlier on.
i think i am repeating things but... ...
我猜
你早就想要说明白
我觉得自己好失败
从天堂掉落到深渊
多无奈
i guess no amount of self pity will change the outcome any.
i guess there's no difference, 100 to 88 to 140 to 96.
the looks part failed, and the person is the problem.
just keep on looking. and look.
and look.
只有‘look'的份.
and that's it.
just 'look'. at others.
at her.
the same thing happens, over and over again.
didn't need to even try hard.
didn't even need to try.
爱，远离我。
当我翻开辞海，我却找不到‘爱’。
my experiences tell me that, “痛到不能再痛，就感觉不到痛了。”
不过这次，我会忍。
一杯就好。
麻醉了比较好睡。
不痛了之后就够了。
all these are proven true. yet again.
1) not good looking at all, failure of 1st impression and all the others
2) not financially independent
3) nothing to like about, no talents (can't play musical instrument or play sports really well or even ride a bike)
4) can't even do the ending right, saying the wrong words even at the end
5) over imposing presence
6) a good friend but that's all i'd ever be
7) different kinda status. door doesn't meet door
8) thick headed to act oblivious to all the obvious signs
i need to stop whining soon. if not the same thing will happen again. as it did. again.
stop whining about this stop whining about this.
just stop.
hold my breath.
A and B is no more. =) but hope we're still friends =)
>_< says (12:20 PM):
erm A~
>_< says (12:20 PM):
seriously dun worry abt it anyway
>_< says (12:20 PM):
er
>_< says (12:20 PM):
anymore
>_< says (12:20 PM):
i noe what ur saying
>_< says (12:21 PM):
hope ya dun haf to worry every time we chat here
>_< says (12:21 PM):
maybe a pity tht the meal will not take place
>_< says (12:21 PM):
but no worries
>_< says (12:21 PM):
take care!
i'd been in the sky since i met you. hit the ground a few times but i got back up there anyway because i want to present only my smiles to you. not that it is worth anything, but it just formed the minute i know you're there.
only when the frequency of falling increases, then i realised the reason why.
i fell to see you again.
i fell.
for you.
and this maybe the last time i'd ever get the chance to fall again.
i thank you for getting me over the last fall, and for putting me back down now where i first looked up then to see you, again.
let me wallow in this for awhile.
it's a piece of my life i'd never get back.......
4 songs here guess what songs????
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雨 不停落下来 花 怎麼都不开
尽管我细心灌溉 你说不爱就不爱 我一个人 欣赏悲哀
只要你能愉快
你要我听这一首歌 用这首歌离开我
是不是上帝在我眼前遮住了帘
忘了掀开
为什麽爱上你的人是我
为什麽一厢情愿的人会难过
为什麽对你舍不得 总是我
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我还能笑的。=）
I still can smile. =)
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