it would arrive just like last year... 3pm.
and it didn't.
guess i really blew it last june.
good job jd.
Showing posts with label When B first met A. Show all posts
Showing posts with label When B first met A. Show all posts
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
And i thought...
it would arrive just like last year... 3pm.
and it didn't.
guess i really blew it last june.
good job jd.
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Saturday, June 14, 2008
B is B no more, and A isn't as well.
=) i'm fine.
the kfc toasted wrap is teh nice! woohoo! but i think i wouldnt have it anytime soon i guess. i can feel my taf building up.
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hmm i need a flask.
my notebook's almost full too.
wah i feel like ktv but running low on dough.
the ferrero rondnoir is simply timely. glad that i bought it! keeping my spirits high@@woohoo~~
i must watch my weight le~~~~ ah!!! so many chocos!!!! OH ANOTHER SPOIL OF THE DAY YESTERDAY IS THE ORANGE FLAVOURED CHOCOLATE!
i din really eat OFC and like it because it's milk choco. BUT THIS PARTICULAR ONE I BOUGHT...*DRUMROLLS* IS 75% DARK CHOCO AND STILL ORANGE FLAVOURED!!!!
im guessing there's some serious noir buffs out there inventing such stuffs.
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PC show was okay i guess, as crowded as usual. im glad i haf meiz + kotek as company this time. HTC TOUCH DIAMOND IS TEH ROXXOR~!
i remember last year quite loser/loner where i went to the show myself, go visit a friend who is working at the bookfair and saw my fellow loner there LOL who is none other than Bert. I guess he won't be in the club after this year heh!!!!!
caught up with the poly guys as usual~~ well... heh....
the movie ending is...
heart warming.
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Random Pics!
I guess this was what I have feared and came true and sorta what I expected. "till I hear from A personally." It really did.
I've got acute sixth sense i think.
and the special lv3 ability to step on her toes.
但你说
i only want to be your friend
做个朋友
我在
你心中只是just a friend
不是情人
我感激你对我这样的坦白
但我给你的爱暂时收不回来
but i can live with that, i can be just a friend =) always, hee.
just that i hope that we won't be awkward even while chatting over msn. ^-^
sorry for making you feel uncomfy, was never my intention, but im sorry it turned out like that. and also for being so thick skinned to have appeared oblivious to your ever subtle signs.
i was just running away from the inevitable. it caught up eventually. i know i shouldn't be at the party at all. making things awkward for you. so that you'd even need to half ignore me and so you said.
can't we just talk? oh msn.
as long as you're confortable with it.
我的世界将被摧毁
也许颓废也是另一种美。
我的世界已被摧毁
颓废是一种美。
我已被摧毁
颓废是美。
摧毁
颓废。
Friday the 13th, 11:47am
突然的找我,好久你没有主动PM我了，是好事吗?
Friday the 13th, 11:49am
"i just didn't feel gd half ignoring u, but it was really a tad awkward."
Friday the 13th, 12:03noon
"i think the way we catch up on msn is fine as it is
let's just leave it at this ok?"
这就是我在等待的，当你说‘就保持现状，msn就好’，以意味着我在你的世界已是多余的。
说是松了口气，倒不如是晴天来的一阵霹雳。
是突然的。
却不是偶然。
是意料之中。
却不是容易接受的。
"but i think its better for our friendship as well
or else would u have preferred me to take the 'ignore' route"
i guess i can take it if you'd really do it. i've been through it some years ago i think.
你所说的餐约，我想，亦不会实现。
谢谢你在我生命的篇章中留下些许的色彩。
刻骨铭心。
sorry for making you feel uncomfy,
it was never my intention,
but im sorry it had to turn out like that.
intention or not, i have caused you much troubles. it's me i agree.
this time i didn't even need to try.
and also for being so thick skinned to have appeared oblivious to your ever subtle signs. as i said. earlier on.
i think i am repeating things but... ...
我猜
你早就想要说明白
我觉得自己好失败
从天堂掉落到深渊
多无奈
i guess no amount of self pity will change the outcome any.
i guess there's no difference, 100 to 88 to 140 to 96.
the looks part failed, and the person is the problem.
just keep on looking. and look.
and look.
只有‘look'的份.
and that's it.
just 'look'. at others.
at her.
the same thing happens, over and over again.
didn't need to even try hard.
didn't even need to try.
爱，远离我。
当我翻开辞海，我却找不到‘爱’。
my experiences tell me that, “痛到不能再痛，就感觉不到痛了。”
不过这次，我会忍。
一杯就好。
麻醉了比较好睡。
不痛了之后就够了。
all these are proven true. yet again.
1) not good looking at all, failure of 1st impression and all the others
2) not financially independent
3) nothing to like about, no talents (can't play musical instrument or play sports really well or even ride a bike)
4) can't even do the ending right, saying the wrong words even at the end
5) over imposing presence
6) a good friend but that's all i'd ever be
7) different kinda status. door doesn't meet door
8) thick headed to act oblivious to all the obvious signs
i need to stop whining soon. if not the same thing will happen again. as it did. again.
stop whining about this stop whining about this.
just stop.
hold my breath.
A and B is no more. =) but hope we're still friends =)
>_< says (12:20 PM):
erm A~
>_< says (12:20 PM):
seriously dun worry abt it anyway
>_< says (12:20 PM):
er
>_< says (12:20 PM):
anymore
>_< says (12:20 PM):
i noe what ur saying
>_< says (12:21 PM):
hope ya dun haf to worry every time we chat here
>_< says (12:21 PM):
maybe a pity tht the meal will not take place
>_< says (12:21 PM):
but no worries
>_< says (12:21 PM):
take care!
i'd been in the sky since i met you. hit the ground a few times but i got back up there anyway because i want to present only my smiles to you. not that it is worth anything, but it just formed the minute i know you're there.
only when the frequency of falling increases, then i realised the reason why.
i fell to see you again.
i fell.
for you.
and this maybe the last time i'd ever get the chance to fall again.
i thank you for getting me over the last fall, and for putting me back down now where i first looked up then to see you, again.
let me wallow in this for awhile.
it's a piece of my life i'd never get back.......
4 songs here guess what songs????
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雨 不停落下来 花 怎麼都不开
尽管我细心灌溉 你说不爱就不爱 我一个人 欣赏悲哀
只要你能愉快
你要我听这一首歌 用这首歌离开我
是不是上帝在我眼前遮住了帘
忘了掀开
为什麽爱上你的人是我
为什麽一厢情愿的人会难过
为什麽对你舍不得 总是我
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我还能笑的。=）
I still can smile. =)
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the kfc toasted wrap is teh nice! woohoo! but i think i wouldnt have it anytime soon i guess. i can feel my taf building up.
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hmm i need a flask.
my notebook's almost full too.
wah i feel like ktv but running low on dough.
the ferrero rondnoir is simply timely. glad that i bought it! keeping my spirits high@@woohoo~~
i must watch my weight le~~~~ ah!!! so many chocos!!!! OH ANOTHER SPOIL OF THE DAY YESTERDAY IS THE ORANGE FLAVOURED CHOCOLATE!
i din really eat OFC and like it because it's milk choco. BUT THIS PARTICULAR ONE I BOUGHT...*DRUMROLLS* IS 75% DARK CHOCO AND STILL ORANGE FLAVOURED!!!!
im guessing there's some serious noir buffs out there inventing such stuffs.
-----------------------------------------------------
PC show was okay i guess, as crowded as usual. im glad i haf meiz + kotek as company this time. HTC TOUCH DIAMOND IS TEH ROXXOR~!
i remember last year quite loser/loner where i went to the show myself, go visit a friend who is working at the bookfair and saw my fellow loner there LOL who is none other than Bert. I guess he won't be in the club after this year heh!!!!!
caught up with the poly guys as usual~~ well... heh....
the movie ending is...
heart warming.
-----------------------------------------------------
Random Pics!
I guess this was what I have feared and came true and sorta what I expected. "till I hear from A personally." It really did.
I've got acute sixth sense i think.
and the special lv3 ability to step on her toes.
但你说
i only want to be your friend
做个朋友
我在
你心中只是just a friend
不是情人
我感激你对我这样的坦白
但我给你的爱暂时收不回来
but i can live with that, i can be just a friend =) always, hee.
just that i hope that we won't be awkward even while chatting over msn. ^-^
sorry for making you feel uncomfy, was never my intention, but im sorry it turned out like that. and also for being so thick skinned to have appeared oblivious to your ever subtle signs.
i was just running away from the inevitable. it caught up eventually. i know i shouldn't be at the party at all. making things awkward for you. so that you'd even need to half ignore me and so you said.
can't we just talk? oh msn.
as long as you're confortable with it.
我的世界将被摧毁
也许颓废也是另一种美。
我的世界已被摧毁
颓废是一种美。
我已被摧毁
颓废是美。
摧毁
颓废。
Friday the 13th, 11:47am
突然的找我,好久你没有主动PM我了，是好事吗?
Friday the 13th, 11:49am
"i just didn't feel gd half ignoring u, but it was really a tad awkward."
Friday the 13th, 12:03noon
"i think the way we catch up on msn is fine as it is
let's just leave it at this ok?"
这就是我在等待的，当你说‘就保持现状，msn就好’，以意味着我在你的世界已是多余的。
说是松了口气，倒不如是晴天来的一阵霹雳。
是突然的。
却不是偶然。
是意料之中。
却不是容易接受的。
"but i think its better for our friendship as well
or else would u have preferred me to take the 'ignore' route"
i guess i can take it if you'd really do it. i've been through it some years ago i think.
你所说的餐约，我想，亦不会实现。
谢谢你在我生命的篇章中留下些许的色彩。
刻骨铭心。
sorry for making you feel uncomfy,
it was never my intention,
but im sorry it had to turn out like that.
intention or not, i have caused you much troubles. it's me i agree.
this time i didn't even need to try.
and also for being so thick skinned to have appeared oblivious to your ever subtle signs. as i said. earlier on.
i think i am repeating things but... ...
我猜
你早就想要说明白
我觉得自己好失败
从天堂掉落到深渊
多无奈
i guess no amount of self pity will change the outcome any.
i guess there's no difference, 100 to 88 to 140 to 96.
the looks part failed, and the person is the problem.
just keep on looking. and look.
and look.
只有‘look'的份.
and that's it.
just 'look'. at others.
at her.
the same thing happens, over and over again.
didn't need to even try hard.
didn't even need to try.
爱，远离我。
当我翻开辞海，我却找不到‘爱’。
my experiences tell me that, “痛到不能再痛，就感觉不到痛了。”
不过这次，我会忍。
一杯就好。
麻醉了比较好睡。
不痛了之后就够了。
all these are proven true. yet again.
1) not good looking at all, failure of 1st impression and all the others
2) not financially independent
3) nothing to like about, no talents (can't play musical instrument or play sports really well or even ride a bike)
4) can't even do the ending right, saying the wrong words even at the end
5) over imposing presence
6) a good friend but that's all i'd ever be
7) different kinda status. door doesn't meet door
8) thick headed to act oblivious to all the obvious signs
i need to stop whining soon. if not the same thing will happen again. as it did. again.
stop whining about this stop whining about this.
just stop.
hold my breath.
A and B is no more. =) but hope we're still friends =)
>_< says (12:20 PM):
erm A~
>_< says (12:20 PM):
seriously dun worry abt it anyway
>_< says (12:20 PM):
er
>_< says (12:20 PM):
anymore
>_< says (12:20 PM):
i noe what ur saying
>_< says (12:21 PM):
hope ya dun haf to worry every time we chat here
>_< says (12:21 PM):
maybe a pity tht the meal will not take place
>_< says (12:21 PM):
but no worries
>_< says (12:21 PM):
take care!
i'd been in the sky since i met you. hit the ground a few times but i got back up there anyway because i want to present only my smiles to you. not that it is worth anything, but it just formed the minute i know you're there.
only when the frequency of falling increases, then i realised the reason why.
i fell to see you again.
i fell.
for you.
and this maybe the last time i'd ever get the chance to fall again.
i thank you for getting me over the last fall, and for putting me back down now where i first looked up then to see you, again.
let me wallow in this for awhile.
it's a piece of my life i'd never get back.......
4 songs here guess what songs????
-------------------------------------------------
雨 不停落下来 花 怎麼都不开
尽管我细心灌溉 你说不爱就不爱 我一个人 欣赏悲哀
只要你能愉快
你要我听这一首歌 用这首歌离开我
是不是上帝在我眼前遮住了帘
忘了掀开
为什麽爱上你的人是我
为什麽一厢情愿的人会难过
为什麽对你舍不得 总是我
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我还能笑的。=）
I still can smile. =)
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Monday, May 12, 2008
For just one more moment with you
Don't take too long to say
I love you to the ones you love
Cause time has a habit of slipping away
And out on the clear blue sky
When lightning strikes on a sunny day
Just take me in and keep me from the rain
And the words that seem so hard to say
Come out when you've gone away
Just stay a little while and hear me say
That I want you here tonight
And I need you by my side
For just one more moment
For just one more moment with you
Turn away to say goodbye
With each and every word that passes by
Like a distant memory
And time keeps slipping away
And time will turn to grey
And time will be the one who holds you down
And the words that seem so hard to say
Come out when you've gone away
Just stay a little while and hear me say
That I want you here tonight
And I need you by my side
For just one more moment
For just one more moment
That I want you here tonight
And I need you by my side
For just one more moment
For just one more moment with you
Sometimes time will treat you bad
Before you even know what's wrong
And in the end it hits you hard
Please tell me you'll be strong
Sometimes time will treat you bad
Before you even know what's wrong
And in the end it hits you hard
Please tell me you'll be strong
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I'd give anything.
I love you to the ones you love
Cause time has a habit of slipping away
And out on the clear blue sky
When lightning strikes on a sunny day
Just take me in and keep me from the rain
And the words that seem so hard to say
Come out when you've gone away
Just stay a little while and hear me say
That I want you here tonight
And I need you by my side
For just one more moment
For just one more moment with you
Turn away to say goodbye
With each and every word that passes by
Like a distant memory
And time keeps slipping away
And time will turn to grey
And time will be the one who holds you down
And the words that seem so hard to say
Come out when you've gone away
Just stay a little while and hear me say
That I want you here tonight
And I need you by my side
For just one more moment
For just one more moment
That I want you here tonight
And I need you by my side
For just one more moment
For just one more moment with you
Sometimes time will treat you bad
Before you even know what's wrong
And in the end it hits you hard
Please tell me you'll be strong
Sometimes time will treat you bad
Before you even know what's wrong
And in the end it hits you hard
Please tell me you'll be strong
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I'd give anything.
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
it felt more like... ...
friend, nothing more, never intended nor considered to go further, but stayed at something lesser.
i think im treading on thin ice. people wun accept anything from a stranger i guess, however un-costly it is. for fearing its hexed or simply uncomfortable with the idea.
because im already a stranger.
just that i refuse to think of it that way.
because of my own fear.
because of it realising before me and in days to come.
"lets do our masters together!" were nothing more than random rants forgotten as soon as it was said.
and oh. hoot arent given by anyone. i should rant less.
another thoughtful night.
oh ya right. less rants.
i think im treading on thin ice. people wun accept anything from a stranger i guess, however un-costly it is. for fearing its hexed or simply uncomfortable with the idea.
because im already a stranger.
just that i refuse to think of it that way.
because of my own fear.
because of it realising before me and in days to come.
"lets do our masters together!" were nothing more than random rants forgotten as soon as it was said.
and oh. hoot arent given by anyone. i should rant less.
another thoughtful night.
"if words and numbers can qualify and quantify my fondness for thee, i'd be Shakespeare and Einstein combined."
oh ya right. less rants.
Sunday, April 20, 2008
3 years and 2 days
well not that anyone at all gives half a damn about it.
IF i had problems with tuition fee, i might not have gone SP.
IF i hadn't gone SP, i wouldn't have done DBA.
IF i didn't do DBA, i might not have gone to D&G for industrial attachment.
IF i didn't go to D&G for industrial attachment, i would never have... ...
i shudder at the thought.
not that anything has changed 1097 days later. except maybe the growing fondness, the unfamiliarity, and decreasing interaction. it's almost like a singer/band/actress you see on tv/magazine/movie you really like but she doesn't know you, not that you really know her except for her name, a snippet of her current going on's and maybe some of her acquaintances.
i'm sure this will be topic of the day this time next year as well. =)
it's just an ordinary story of something not working out, no star-crossed lovers no till death do us part no lion falling in love with the lamb and definitely no special ones falling for some commoners kinda story.
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雨停了不会天晴,
因为你带走了雨后彩虹的色彩。
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You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fucking special
but i'm a creep
i'm a weirdo
what the hell am i doing here?
i don't belong here....
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so i guess, i can only allow myself to put out a hand when i'm down in the quicksand, while wishing for salvation but never giving more than half a hope for it.
because,
falling from heights is bad.
i need to sleep earlier without twists and turns.
suddenly remembered the theme song for Con-Air, the nicholas cage's movie.
a great movie. i swear the song isn't related to this post. i think.
IF i had problems with tuition fee, i might not have gone SP.
IF i hadn't gone SP, i wouldn't have done DBA.
IF i didn't do DBA, i might not have gone to D&G for industrial attachment.
IF i didn't go to D&G for industrial attachment, i would never have... ...
i shudder at the thought.
not that anything has changed 1097 days later. except maybe the growing fondness, the unfamiliarity, and decreasing interaction. it's almost like a singer/band/actress you see on tv/magazine/movie you really like but she doesn't know you, not that you really know her except for her name, a snippet of her current going on's and maybe some of her acquaintances.
i'm sure this will be topic of the day this time next year as well. =)
it's just an ordinary story of something not working out, no star-crossed lovers no till death do us part no lion falling in love with the lamb and definitely no special ones falling for some commoners kinda story.
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雨停了不会天晴,
因为你带走了雨后彩虹的色彩。
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fucking special
but i'm a creep
i'm a weirdo
what the hell am i doing here?
i don't belong here....
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
so i guess, i can only allow myself to put out a hand when i'm down in the quicksand, while wishing for salvation but never giving more than half a hope for it.
because,
falling from heights is bad.
i need to sleep earlier without twists and turns.
suddenly remembered the theme song for Con-Air, the nicholas cage's movie.
a great movie. i swear the song isn't related to this post. i think.
Friday, April 18, 2008
Trois Ans
3 years ago of today, i exited the lift, took a left turn of which i never looked back and regretted.
i kinda remembered. didnt think you would. but. yeah, only foolish people remember such things.
i smiled.
so did you.
and i dont remember any days when i didnt.
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oh my uncanny ability kick started again.
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it may be subtle, but being hyper sensory,
it's as if the text conveyed the message of the midnight wind outside my window.
normal as u tried but it's always fringed by maybe a wee bit of reservation.
as if i shouldnt have stepped into votre vie.
---------------------------------------------
all the hopings did were to hope them all away.
but i wish you smile.
and i wish you love.
tu est tres belle and you must try!
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i need a good walk tomorrow!!
i kinda remembered. didnt think you would. but. yeah, only foolish people remember such things.
i smiled.
so did you.
and i dont remember any days when i didnt.
---------------------------------------------
oh my uncanny ability kick started again.
我只是想要一些疯狂
和拥抱你的希望
或许迂回辗转万般艰难
只用心的将你牵绊
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it may be subtle, but being hyper sensory,
it's as if the text conveyed the message of the midnight wind outside my window.
normal as u tried but it's always fringed by maybe a wee bit of reservation.
as if i shouldnt have stepped into votre vie.
---------------------------------------------
all the hopings did were to hope them all away.
but i wish you smile.
and i wish you love.
tu est tres belle and you must try!
---------------------------------------------
i need a good walk tomorrow!!
Monday, April 07, 2008
i never knew that replies can be so...
cold?
kinda changed i guess. without telling what caused the change.
tbe mistakes haunting me again.
thought i yearned for the conversation but.
左上角很久没这么痛过了
if it's some kinda joke please tell me where the camera is.
if it ain't,
i need to survive the day.
kinda changed i guess. without telling what caused the change.
tbe mistakes haunting me again.
thought i yearned for the conversation but.
左上角很久没这么痛过了
if it's some kinda joke please tell me where the camera is.
if it ain't,
i need to survive the day.
Thursday, March 20, 2008
That day might never come,
But I'm looking forward to it everyday single day.
What am i saying, you won't know it anyway, unless you stumble upon this or I have the ability to think out loud.
I should be in bed 4 hours ago.
What am i saying, you won't know it anyway, unless you stumble upon this or I have the ability to think out loud.
I should be in bed 4 hours ago.
Monday, February 18, 2008
lyrical lies, depressing lines
i fine. probably abit off up there but i think i'm ok.
i just don't wanna feel anymore. even if it's temporary.
it's just me. it's something i've asked for. or did i?
my sensitivity is at its all time high. maybe i can sense crude oil underground and strike it rich. but i digress.
wo zhui zhu ai, ai que yuan li wo.
wo tao li bei shang, bei shang pian pian huan rao zhe wo.
wo yi jing kai shi hu si luan xiang.
jiu xiang yi qian yi yang.
na ge re ren tao yan de zi ji.
it's the "unexpected friendliness syndrome" again, again, and, again. side effects kicking in. distanced. well i didn't even need to ask/hint/popthequestion before it kicks in.
come to think again, would you reciprocate shrek if you weren't fiona....
i.didn't.think.so.
i'd take it as that. for now.
let me wallow in this bittersweet melancholy and selfpity for sometime.
i needed this to keep what's left of sanity that's been stretched like a taut wire for as long as i appeared as normal.
i'll just back off. for awhile.
just go cold turkey deprived of the thoughts of MA.
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LOL just joking!!! Did i manage to get ya? LOLOLOLOLOL ROFL you must be thinking "he's at it again" LOLOLOLOLOL
=)
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maybe it was a joke from the start to begin with.
Autumns Monologue
Oh why can't I be what you need?
A new improved version of me.
But I'm nothing so good
no, I'm nothing...
just bones, a lonely ghost burning down songs
of violence, of love, and of sorrow.
I beg for just one more tomorrow!
Where you'd hold me down, fold me in
deep deep deep in the heart of your sins.
I'd break in two over you
I'd break in two
and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life!
But you don't see me. You dont.
Here I'm pinned between darkness and light,
bleached and blinded by these nights.
Where I'm tossing and tortured till dawn
by you, visions of you, then you're gone.
The shock bleeds the red from my face,
when i hear someone's taken my place.
How could love be so thoughtless, so cruel?
When all, all that i did was for you...
I'd break in two over you
I'd break in two
and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life!
But you dont see me. You don't.
I'd break in two over you
I'd break in two
and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life!
But you don't see me. You don't.
I'd break in two over you,
I'd break in two over you! Over you
I'd break in two,
I would break in two for you.
Now you see me, now you don't.
Now you need me, now you don't.
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they should label on the bottle "warning: cheap liquor causes bad hangovers."
i need to pull myself together if i have the strength at the end.
it's just me. it's something i've asked for. or did i?
my sensitivity is at its all time high. maybe i can sense crude oil underground and strike it rich. but i digress.
wo zhui zhu ai, ai que yuan li wo.
wo tao li bei shang, bei shang pian pian huan rao zhe wo.
wo yi jing kai shi hu si luan xiang.
jiu xiang yi qian yi yang.
na ge re ren tao yan de zi ji.
it's the "unexpected friendliness syndrome" again, again, and, again. side effects kicking in. distanced. well i didn't even need to ask/hint/popthequestion before it kicks in.
come to think again, would you reciprocate shrek if you weren't fiona....
i.didn't.think.so.
i'd take it as that. for now.
let me wallow in this bittersweet melancholy and selfpity for sometime.
i needed this to keep what's left of sanity that's been stretched like a taut wire for as long as i appeared as normal.
i'll just back off. for awhile.
just go cold turkey deprived of the thoughts of MA.
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LOL just joking!!! Did i manage to get ya? LOLOLOLOLOL ROFL you must be thinking "he's at it again" LOLOLOLOLOL
=)
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maybe it was a joke from the start to begin with.
Autumns Monologue
Oh why can't I be what you need?
A new improved version of me.
But I'm nothing so good
no, I'm nothing...
just bones, a lonely ghost burning down songs
of violence, of love, and of sorrow.
I beg for just one more tomorrow!
Where you'd hold me down, fold me in
deep deep deep in the heart of your sins.
I'd break in two over you
I'd break in two
and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life!
But you don't see me. You dont.
Here I'm pinned between darkness and light,
bleached and blinded by these nights.
Where I'm tossing and tortured till dawn
by you, visions of you, then you're gone.
The shock bleeds the red from my face,
when i hear someone's taken my place.
How could love be so thoughtless, so cruel?
When all, all that i did was for you...
I'd break in two over you
I'd break in two
and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life!
But you dont see me. You don't.
I'd break in two over you
I'd break in two
and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life!
But you don't see me. You don't.
I'd break in two over you,
I'd break in two over you! Over you
I'd break in two,
I would break in two for you.
Now you see me, now you don't.
Now you need me, now you don't.
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i need to pull myself together if i have the strength at the end.
Friday, January 04, 2008
I'm in awe of myself.
every year around this time i'd stop and look back at how stupid/hopeless/loserish/uncool i had been by reading dec/jan blogs of the past years.
found quite abit of witty posts so much so that i'm in awe of myself. boring topics but amused myself nonetheless.
blogging is evidence of every thought ever thought.
2005 april postings. first encounter. dunno why we'd talk so much that the boss gotta separate our seats.
2005 june postings. i just finished my ITP. i kinda missed it immediately the day it ended even though i hated the company. i don't "think i like" like i said then. i really do like now. the french imitation impressions. the car ride out with your dad. betrayal of delifrance for subway. but without the circumstances and the lunch hangout/sweet escape i would never ever had met her. by the end of the mth i thought a scary thought. that i'd never see you again.
i think you dont really mean it but im happy nonetheless. 2006 january.
after that i'd insert small little thoughts in various postings. pepe!
thn i come across one of my unworthy creation:
"i was borned to live, lived to learn, learnt to love, and loved till i die."
at this point of time i hope my finance project will do by itself. im pretty sure once i click "PUBLISH POST" i'd regret why i didnt start working on it earlier.
alright. looked back enough. shall look forward to looking back this year next year. whatever that means.
found quite abit of witty posts so much so that i'm in awe of myself. boring topics but amused myself nonetheless.
blogging is evidence of every thought ever thought.
2005 april postings. first encounter. dunno why we'd talk so much that the boss gotta separate our seats.
2005 june postings. i just finished my ITP. i kinda missed it immediately the day it ended even though i hated the company. i don't "think i like" like i said then. i really do like now. the french imitation impressions. the car ride out with your dad. betrayal of delifrance for subway. but without the circumstances and the lunch hangout/sweet escape i would never ever had met her. by the end of the mth i thought a scary thought. that i'd never see you again.
i think you dont really mean it but im happy nonetheless. 2006 january.
after that i'd insert small little thoughts in various postings. pepe!
thn i come across one of my unworthy creation:
"i was borned to live, lived to learn, learnt to love, and loved till i die."
at this point of time i hope my finance project will do by itself. im pretty sure once i click "PUBLISH POST" i'd regret why i didnt start working on it earlier.
alright. looked back enough. shall look forward to looking back this year next year. whatever that means.