today is labour day~ hope i can labour enough today..thats to study abit...at least abit~~~

wat a day yesterday~ lol

i'm so...hmm...suddenly...dunno how to put it..

anyway... need money~ lol~

sian

Well~ recieved some good news from me primary skoolmate~~ lol~ She's attached! so happy for her~ lol~ lalala~~haha... starting of honeymoon period for her~~ woot~hahaha

hmm... suddenly thought of one thing~

"Those who din't have anything, yearns to have something.
Those who have something, greeds for more.
Those who greeds for more but din't get it, hopes to have what they
originally had.
And those who got more, wants more."

well, that's Human.

"Those who are contented, are those who realises what they have are enough.
Those who realises that they have enough, are those who are truly happy
with what they have."

well, that's contentment.

"All these are bullshit. I have nothing much to start with. That's why i yearn."

well, that's me.

according to mob, the lowest level of needs must be satisfied first before the next level is needed.

well, I like to multi-task, but done nicely.

anyway, juz some reflections of the walks of life.

lol~ may sound abit un-me, but, why don't people just stop walking and think through about this?

Ar!! its morning!! good morning dear blog~~ lol~

i hope today will be less sianz and more fun~

maybe haf a few pleasant surprises or something..lol~

maybe i'm juz day dreaming~~~

im addicted to Baldur's Gate on PS2...how? although its such an old game liao...but sibei addictive...lol..hack and slash hack and slash...lol~ fun sial...see how the enemies burn~~~ zombies become half... lol
~~ so fun@! come play wif me@@!

aifi amfam vehfehreefee boredfored... howfow aifi wishedfished datfat aifi canfan flyfly erferwayfay...toofoo sumfumwarefare aifi amfam wanfunterdferd..sumfumwarefare aifi canfan loveferve sumfumonefun andfan beefee lovedferved backfack... toofoo sumfumwarefare warefare therefare arefar nofo funfun naofao... sumfumwarefare closefose toofoo erfer pehfehrefedisefise... howfow aifi wishedfished aifi cudfood seetfeet byfigh erfer beachfich wiffif myfigh dearfeer byfigh myfigh sidefide...gasfas datfat ainfaint cumfumingfing truefoo anfanneefeetimefime nearfear....sighfigh~~

ar..today went studying~ er~ maybe not really..maybe juz studied abit. mostly reading my exams manual~ lol~ mob is plain boring. next monday liao~ zzz~~~

All these new skins and feature are not here without the cutest and chioest girl of all --- Min Xiao Xiao~~ without her..all these will not be possible and i wud like to express my utmost gratitude here...You've been a great help! thank you very very very much! *hugz* ar~ finally finished all these... took me...2-3 hrs doing all these...luckily got minz help~~ arbor till 7am also cannot finish!

ar...can pi liao~~~ off to dreamlandz~~~

woot~ saw my fren's fren.... CUTE sial~~~

irish mix chinese~~ sooooo cute...lovable...nice~~~

so cute...totally mesmerized

lol~

wat to do...haha...

ar!! another day of blogging. lol~

my life today~
woke up. played games. watched tv. ate. played games. went westmall. bought comics. bought cake. ate. went home. watched tv. read comics. came online. lol~

tml plan to study liao. cannot slack.

maybe will slack juz a little. juz a little. little.

anyways~

幸福時候，別來找我。帶禇妳的快樂和他繼續往前走。不屬於我，我不會難過。
lol~ lyrics of the day~

my last post of this hour. lol~

hmm...remembered that my favourite song during pri 6. lol... backstreet boys craze...

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I don't know what he does to make you cry,
but I'll be there to make you smile.
I don't have a fancy car,
to get to you I'd walk a thousand miles.
I don't care if he buy you nice things
Does his gifts come from the heart? - I don't know...
But if you were my girl...
I'd make it so we'd never be apart.

But my love is all I have to give
Without you I don't think I can live
I wish I could give the world to you... but
Love is all I have to give.

When you talk - does it seem like he's not
even listening to a word you say?
That's okay babe, just tell me your problems
I'll try my best to kiss them all away...
Does he leave when you need him the most?
Does his friends get all your time?
Baby please... I'm on my knees
praying for the day that you'll be mine!!

To you...Hey Girl,I don't want you to cry no more - inside
All the money in the world could never add up to all the love
that I have inside ... I Love You baby

And I will give it to you
All I can give,all I can give
Everything I have is for you
But love is all I have to give

But my love is all I have to give
Without you I don't think I can live
I wish I could give the world to you ... but
Love is all I have to give...to you.

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lol, wat reminescence. wonderful memories of my childhood.

it still applies now. i want to say to the one who's somewhere out there.

"But love is all i have to give....to you."

really.

its morning! i wud like to say good morning dear blog!
i dun feel like sleeping yet. guess that sleep liao tml is the same.
nothing changed. guess it was blown big enuff.

lol~

一定會有以後，我拿鐵石心腸，鎮守禇愛情。。。
留給我一個回來的權利。。。儅你傷透心。。。

beautiful song~ lol...

做你的外套，只能穿梭你的外表。
聽到妳對他的撒嬌，可笑的是我沒資格計較。

做妳的外套，擁抱著卻不被擁抱。
我是誰妳知不知道，怎能隨便穿上又換掉。

hmm, how apt. how beautiful. how sad.
feel like crying kinda song. indeed. 聽到妳對他的撒嬌，可笑的是我沒資格計較...

做妳的外套，擁抱著卻不被擁抱。how true...
but.. it's my choice. i chose to.

ar har~ harloe dear blog. today was a sian day.

i woke up. played game. watched tv. played game. went westmall. binded my mob notes. bought top up card. bought chocolate. ate. bought comics. went home. played games. ate dinner. watched tv. here wif my com.

EXCITING LIFE huh~ dun u wanna live it too? come join me!

here's another song i written for tht someone i used to...erm... er hem. nevermind bout tht. enjoy~

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愛禇她，並不是那麽容易。
望禇她，那臉孔那麽美麗。
聽見她，那聲音那麽甜蜜。
那就是在我心底，永遠愛禇的 _ _。

夢見她，我真想不被驚醒。
陪禇她，我真像時間暫停。
應為她，我生命纔有意義。
我不會講她忘記，把回憶収在心坎裏。

也許我真得太傻，朋友都告訴我放棄她吧。
自從那天起，我見到妳，我就決定和你形影不離。

愛禇她，並不是那麽容易。
望禇她，那臉孔那麽美麗。
聽見她，那聲音那麽甜蜜。
那就是在我心底，永遠愛禇的 _ _。

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anyway, i purposely left out the name, the 2 words. see if u all noe wat is it. guess u all wun except those who noe me for at least 5 yrs. lol. enjoy~

this is a song i composed and wrote. if i knew how to play a guitar. i'd play it for u.

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"everytime, when i am down.
i just wanna see you smile.
i just wanna think of you.
to love you is what im gonna do.

i dun wanna ever see you cry.
if u need i'll hold your heart close to mine.
to me your're my everything.
you're the dearest girl, i ever seen.

baby, everytime i'm missing you...
baby, everytime i pray for you...
hold me, like you never ever do......
and i'll never hurt you cos i love u like i always do...

everytime there's sadness on your face.
i wud try and drive it all away.
if u need me, i'll always be there.
just to show you how much i care.

so far, though so near.
it breaks my heart and sets it to tears.
wished to see you, the chance that i get.
wished that we were more than just friends....

baby, everytime i'm missing you...
baby, everytime i pray for you...
hold me, like you never ever do......
and i'll never hurt you cos i love u like i always do...

baby, everytime i'm missing you...
baby, everytime i pray for you...
hold me, like you never ever do......
and i'll never let go cos my feelings, are so true.....~~~~

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this song was like...written when i was sec 3. those days...
hope you all liked it.

Drinking.

This is something I'd never quit (unless i tio kidney disease). Tis something i enjoyed. when i haf the money. I'm loving it...bah la bah bah bah....

My first drinking session was at sec 2. lol. My good thai fren and frens went to east coast thon. lol. It was National Day. and tht was the reason i gave mom. to celebrate national day.

First drink was hooch. cant remember wats after tht. juice. but it was my first drink. im very. very. excited. such a fun thing to do shud be introduced to me during primary school!

anyway. i drank more and more those days. becos...something happened thn...all the way till the day i worked. anyways. it aint in this topic too. aint tokking bout it. starting was juz half a yr once. after i reached sec 3. it was a few months once. wif meiz fu. or wud be thn. something happened agn. i drank wif or wifout him...wif other frens too.

the regular drinking kakis were juz few. but enuff to sustain thru my upper sec career. till sec 4. drank lesser thn 3. but i pratically drank whenever i had the chance. even the whole bottle of chivas regal and bailey's irish cream at home. at least i wasnt smoking then. decadence. or watever u called it.

meiz told me not to drink too much. most prob is becos i asked meiz fu out to drink too often. i drink too much equals to him drinking too much. i think she cares for me too. but i let her down again and again. i...

when i was working. i had the money. i had enuff voidness and loneliness to drive me to a pub...to drink...thn to 7 eleven to drink again...and smoke...more smoke...and even more smoke.

whenever i got abit high...(i never got drunk...except once i was close to drunk...but i was sober enuff to walk and noe wats going on) i saw things clearly. something i never did noticed suddenly becomes prominent. ants on the ground. leaves on the road. buses numbers. people walking around. my vacuum cleaner life. my meiz. my evrything(if there was anything).

i dun really remember when did i start drinking hard liquer. maybe it was during work or after. ya. shud be. my first was vodka. it sucks. smells. like cleaning lotion or something. second was bacardi. yeah. it was great. hell yeah. next was tequila. my favourite. the most versatile of all. tequila pop...power...hell yeah!

virtually all the mixers u can find in 7-11 or cheers i drank em all. so i dun intend to list them out here. wat i wanna highlight is the beer section. i liked some of them. but some of them makes me sick. tiger is good during supper. budweiser is good whn i feel like gulping in 6 packs. baron strongbrew and amsterdam is whn i want something strong. kilkenny is smooth...one of my favourites....stella artois is when i want to haf something special. heneiken and carlsberg is when i suddenly wanna drink them. all the others...i tried and never did again.

in pubs..i tried only a little variety of drinks as i din frequent it much. hence...nothing to say.

alcohol is my life. c'est ma vie. c'est la vie.

anyway...i like champagne and wines too. fruity fruity.

red wine plus 7-up or sprite~~ woot~~~ its nice!!! juz like champagne.

lastly. i wun stop drinking. till ....

lol. 2 of my bad habits already out. am i still your friend? or reconsidering?

hmm... *cheers*

I did mention I was a smoker. Here goes:

My first puff was sec 3. Curious. Depressed. Depressed. Low morale.

Mild Seven lights was the brand. Tastes good.

Next was Sampoerna. A smokerfriend named Brian gave me one. It was sweet, literally, as the butt was sweet. I liked Sampoerna, but it was strong.

Never did touched smoke till after O's. When i was working. When i had the money. When i was ... in fact more depressed then before. Alot of things happened b4 that. Since people at workplace were smoking, all the more gave me reason to join in. Marlboro menthol lights, my life saver then...if not for it...well... (thts why i noe who is philip morris)

anyway, i din juz stop at marlboro. dj mix (lemon flavoured). winston menthol. more menthol and menthol lights. djmix menthol. Djarum(something like sampoerna). Sampoerna menthol. Cigars (dun haf menthol). L&M (also philip morris). Texas 5 menthol and menthol ice. Salem menthol. thats all i cud remember i smoked b4. most were good.

Especially when i went to pub alone after work. I can smoke a pack in 2 hours. Feeling decadent. Feeling down. Feeling bad. Feeling....shit. Feeling....end-it-all. Once I'm sober, voidness fills in. Emptiness deafen my ears.

Anyway. After a few months. My meiz found out. She was...unhappy. I quitted for awhile. Then I restarted smoking. The first puff in a couple of months were good too. I was relieved of my....unhealthy thoughts. My sucky life then. My weariness.

My meiz found out again that i was resmoking. She was...unhappy. I think. I tried again to quit. I think I did it. Though habit kicked in and i fought hard. Stole a few puffs. But i managed to get by without it till now. But so what. Nothing changed. Healthier life?

What am i really thinking when i was smoking...Nothing. Everything nothing. Got abit high here and then(considered how much i smoked then). I feel.. relieved. Just like when i was enjoying drinking hard liquer. HARD LIQUER. Mixers are juice. I feel...Salvation. My life will go on for evry 10 minutes i smoked. I'm happy i think. Happy that i got 10 minutes break from all of these shit.

Well. Smoking does great harm. Not to my health. But to something else more important. Anyway, it aint in this topic. Aint tokking bout it. Aint wanna. Aint.

Well. This is just a glimpse of the story. Enjoyed? Cos this is real life.

I decided to name this story "10 Fucking enjoyable minutes..then."

*Cheerz*

Ironies. Of my life.

1) I hate ginger. I like gingerale.
2) I hate garlic. I like garlic bread.
3) I hate smoky areas. I was a smoker.
4) I dun like to be drunk. I like to drink...alot.
5) I'm fat. But i go gym.
6) I hate holidays. I like going to school.
7) I hate homework. I like to go to school.
8) I hate exams. I like school.
9) I'm a guy. I got girls sensitivity.
10) Sometimes I hate myself. Life goes on.

hmm..guess pessimism kicked in again~ it's juz sometimes la~~ lol...~~

finally econs over. econs over.

feel like having a barbeque of some sort...no need charcoal oso..lol

hmm. suddenly thought of vanilla sky, though never watched the movie.

nabei.sian.piangz.shit.fiak.liew.wahlan.hongkan.chaoturban.

wah!! later econs liao!!
i still dunno wat the hell is...hmm... watever!!!

SiAnSaTiOn~~~

hmm..guess i found time for another. tml is econs. sian. still haven finish. panicking. panic panic. panic attack. got the idea? anyway, sianpanic.

ar!!! my second day of blogging...well...who invented this thing anyway...Blog?? anyway...tis cool...(in case someone erase my account).. (",)

today finally my wallet was full... dun ask me why... i got my ways~

wat a day.. lol...its a beautiful day~~~ la la la~~

gym today was nice... since someone was here...

somehow... sigh~

dead beat today...

nabei chee bye~~ haven study finish econs... nabei sure die~~~

knn... pang seh econs liao la...

I cannot understand who the !@#$#@%$@!# invented heels...tis !@#$#%! uncomfortable and ladies like to wear thm???

!@#$%#!!#$

most prob today only got one blog...this is it...lol

wah lan..aye koon aye koon liao...bak chiew siap siap liao...

money really does smells good...duncha all think so...

finally...i'd end wif a quote..my quote...of course..whose else??

"i'd be there for u forever and a day, tht is..if u let me. And tht's how long i'd be there..."

of course la~ if i die first thn bo wei gong...

okie liao...kan sian liao...aye koon aye koon liao...

so today until here..till next blog!!

(ps..pardon my hokkien today...juz feel like speaking it)

Tu Est Tres Belle

Thy eyes are a wonderful sight,
sparkling like water, dazzling like stars.
Ah! Serenity fills my soul.
Thy sweet lips enchants my thoughts,
flushing my mind, flaming my senses.
Just like a smile from the Devil.
Thy hair caresses the wind,
wind touches my face, like thou touched me.
My life is recharged once again.

"cont next time~"

here's another...i think it applies to me very well...quite...maybe..argh..watever..

時光機

那陽光　碎裂在熟悉場景　好安靜
一個人　能背多少的往事　真不輕
誰的笑　誰的溫暖的手心　我著迷
傷痕好像都變成　了曾經

全劇終　看見滿場空座椅　燈亮起
這故事　好像真實又像虛幻的情境
只是那　好不容易被說服　的自己
藉口又頂不住懊惱的侵襲

好後悔　好傷心　想重來　行不行
再一次　我就不會走向這樣的結局
好後悔　好傷心　誰把我　放回去
我願意　付出所有來換一個時光機

對不起　獨自回蕩在空氣　沒人聽
最後又是孤單　到天明
(最後又是孤單　到天明)

真的痛　總是來的很輕盈　沒聲音
從背後　慢慢緩緩抱著我　就像你
你和我　還有很多的地方　還沒去
為何留我荒唐的坐在這裡

hmm... i would give almost anything to get a time machine...

here's a song i really liked by MayDay 五月天

擁抱

脫下長日的假面　奔向夢幻的疆界
南瓜馬車的午夜　換上童話的玻璃鞋
讓我享受這感覺　我是孤傲的薔薇
讓我品嚐這滋味　紛亂世界的不了解

昨天太近　明天太遠　默默聆聽那黑夜
晚風吻盡　荷花葉　任我醉倒在池邊
等你清楚看見我的美　月光曬乾眼淚
哪一個人　愛我　將我的手　緊握
抱緊我　吻我　喔　愛　別走

隱藏自己的疲倦　表達自己的狼狽
放縱自己的狂野　找尋自己的明天
向你要求的誓言　就算是你的謊言
我需要愛的慰藉　就算那愛已如潮水

how nice is it? you gotta listen it to yourself.

What are some words that a clinic, hospital, coffin maker and undertaker can't put at their shop?

"生意興隆“ and “客似云來”

lol...why dun u all ponder why not~~~

My second post. Sounds fun. Looks fun. Enjoy.

A summary of my life.

Optimistically : Not bad.

Pessimistically : Probably you'll see me in papers sometime.

Technically : Full of downs and some ups.

Theoretically : Livable.

Objectively : Might be that I'm pessimistic.

Subjectively : If you lived through it, you'd be too.

Basically : People detests my pessimism.

Honestly : They din't live through it.

Finally : I'm shaped by my life. Blame me.

This is my first blogging session. So absolutely excited! Well, you got me there...i ain't tht particularly excited...but it's good to have this since some nights i like to write rubbish and all that... But that shouldn't stop me from posting my works!!! or rubbish..or watever u call it...