the last day of the year

who is on your mind right now?

many will be green in envy if you do have one.

想都不敢想.

impossible.

bitter, but sweet.

impossibly hopeless creatures.

impactful day.

chio right my cousin?

someone looks like her dont you think? (side thought: and i thought my cuz was beautiful today. i totally can picture my thoughts.)

married at 24. 就在最年轻无暇的时候. i'm not saying 老了就不能无暇, but it's not the same having certain additions in your life while you're young then when you're old. i remember years back i've said to myself "24 is the optimal age to do this kind of thing."

years later someone really did. my cuz. wow.

it's quite an impactful day for me to see 同辈的人 getting married already. it's like, wah lau serious boh? then next one is who? the youngest cousin?

都是谈婚论嫁的年龄了. By olden days standard. But nonetheless the parallel are drawn.

what can i do when i'm 24?

nonetheless i wish them happy. :)

where was the building of anything?

just because i didn't want to argue doesn't mean you are right.
you are right because i am expendable.
at least you vented whatever bad air built up.

6.50 is shit. the project better be worth the time.

i need to look out for better prospects.

i'm back. again.

it jd walking with jd and whatnots.

sharing the good times. only.

Finally. Here's the highlights of my trip 2 weeks ago.


张宇-趁早

到后来才发现爱你是一种习惯
我学会和你说一样的谎
你总是要我在你身旁
说幸福该是什么模样
你给我的天堂 其实是一片荒凉
要是我早可以和你一刀两断
我们就不必在爱里勉强
可是我真的不够勇敢
总为你忐忑 为你心软
毕竟相爱一场
不要谁心里带着伤
我可以永远笑着扮演你的配角
在你的背后自己煎熬
如果你不想要 想退出要趁早
我没有非要一起到老
我可以不问感觉继续为爱讨好
冷眼的看着你的骄傲
若有情太难了 想别恋要趁早
就算迷恋你的拥抱
忘了就好

要是我早可以和你一刀两断
我们就不必在爱里勉强
可是我真的不够勇敢
总为你忐忑 为你心软
毕竟相爱一场
不要谁心里带着伤
我可以永远笑着扮演你的配角
在你的背后自己煎熬
[如果你不想要 想退出要趁早
我没有非要一起到老
我可以不问感觉继续为爱讨好
冷眼的看着你的骄傲
若有情太难了 想别恋要趁早
就算迷恋你的拥抱
忘了就好
爱已至此怎样的说法 都能成为理由
我在这样的爱情里看见的
是我们的软弱
我可以永远笑着扮演你的配角
在你的背后自己煎熬
如果你不想要 想退出要趁早
我没有非要一起到老
我可以不问感觉继续为爱讨好
冷眼的看着你的骄傲
若有情太难了 想别恋要趁早
就算迷恋你的拥抱
忘了就好

i saw pearl today

small world.
lovely sight.

就只剩下回忆而已.

moving on.

bye.

I tried very hard today.

But it was so difficult.

I can do better!

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i tried many things for the first time yesterday -
1) smelly toufu. smelly but really delicious.
2) fried intestines. i guess its like chicken skin, can stomach it but not too much.
3) losing ban luck slightly more thn usual. well, a load off anyway.

you don't try you don't know ahahaa.

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it's JD walking with JD tonight :)

明知影无彩工...无彩工...

劲歌金曲！！！


三瞑三日
词：吴宗宪 曲：吴宗宪 周杰伦
光线渐渐照入无开的窗
空空的酒杯装着满满的相思
你的行影虽然离开
但是我的心内犹原拢是你
想你三瞑三日
从头到尾把你想一遍
明知影无彩工
风吹草动嘛心震动
想你三瞑三日
一点一滴按怎放抹记
乎你带走的我的灵魂
只有是随风乱纷飞

bad dream.

are supposed to be "not real".

dark. cold. windy.

and myself.

just that i can't even have my peace for that few hours.

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but it's not as if it ain't happening IRL.

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however im still staying afloat. booya!

wateva~~~ O_o


villain to be...


smile =)

说好的幸福呢

你不等了.说好的.幸福呐
我错了.泪干了.放手了 后悔了

只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着.要怎么停呐...

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dope song. foresee it to be playing on the mrts/buses/streets during the school holidays/school adjourn. via loudspeakers from some handphone. of some of our younger commuters.

nonetheless, its one great song. talent at work again. not that previous 2 or 3 albums no good. but this song is seriously a milestone song of his to me. the previous one was 安静. that was many albums ago.

preference ba, i guess.

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haa~ i quite godlike one. but the time difference slipped my mind. carry on rants like tht. really paiseh.

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ok. chiong.

Halfway.

to be:



Smile :)

talk.

im just scared.

5 ounce is not enough.

and this is bad news.
i guess.



谁能体谅 我的雨天

我的眼眶泪太满

偶尔胆怯 你都了解
过去那些大雨落下的瞬间
我突然发现

你却越来越远

thx kotek for intro-ing me this song!
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lol due to event purposes i was at dxo helping out cos got fringe activity....

still as warm as ever... the air conditioning sucked.

i am definitely amused by the sight of people gathering around the buffet table.... lol

5o over satays grabbed up within 2 minutes.. lol......

anyway...

kendi...... well.....

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higher is good. heh.

maybe it doesnt mean you too.

maybe.
well if it includes me,
i guess the last rung will be inviting whn i accidentally find myself feeling the superman powers creeping through my blood.

让你逃亡又让你回航
让你依赖我也让你倔强
只要你微笑
带一点感动的泪光
我就得到可以再给的力量

i will have no where to hide after this week.
vanilla dun go well with peach.

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scarface on ps2 is damn fun. prison break season 2~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ scofield!!!

Here it is

The Sunday Pass for the Padang Grandstand~ well, nobody asked so here it is.



Just cam-ing abit, since it's not that often i can fiddle around with a digicam, used to be able to, but not now.



The aston martin cup, reckoned that they are DB-S's. 3 sg drivers within the race too..


Walked around abit even though we've got seats cos the whole place is transformed into a F1 Village or something. Wanted to buy the F1 bear for the one who likes bear but alas....Shirts and tees are hundred over dollars... shoes and stuff are 200 over dollars.. well they are saying tht the paraphernalias within the village is of different selection to those selling outside..wow... Food and drinks were fexpensive (500ml coke at 3 dollars), but we found these babies and a 7-11 at the singapore flyer!! life-saver!! stocked up on coke zero 1.5l at 3 dollars and some sweets for my cough.

Scary looking isn't it... screammmmm~~~~


found a good spot at a cornering route took loads of vids and pics. funny how all the cars tht whizzes past exited the corner into a straight shakily. bumpy huh~
hamiliton!


dontnoewho!


Singapore flyer turning yellow whn the safety car is out! well, cant really see tht its yellow though.....well din manage to get pictures of accidents~~~


Thanks to this guy im able to watch f1 live in singapore... kotek aka richkid aka ivan. but he got the tix not because he bought it though lol~~~ darn lucky for me hehehe... ho say ah!






well, taking a last photo during the racers waving to the audience after the checkered flag was waved after the 61st lap~~~~


some other stuff thts not on the photos. well we tried to head to the paddock club where to cool people ar and tried to look for the eversohot denise keller but we cant enter the paddock club lol.

its really damn hot that evening.

zouk on padang seems sparse.

Now i understood why they say the road is bumpy, even when axel stone said that the singapore f1 street track is world class. fyi, THE ENGINE ROARING IS FUCKING LOUD. ROARING LOUD. DEAFENING LOUD. just because the video shows tht its loud its not just tht loud. try full blasting and imagining the roar x 3. heng got ear plugs.


it is really shaky dont you think?



after everything we hung out walking around padang checking out the outdoor dance floor and concert cos the exit is simply too packed to exit for the next hour. some angmors was lying on mats on grass and beer cups littered all around them. rich ang mors. zzz shudda bought the beers from 7-11 and sell at profit and still cheaper thn the stalls.

kotek suggested supper and i said laupasat. well fungry we are as we only had ljs before entering the f1 site in the afternoon. by now its already like 11 plus pm.

on the way to lau pa sat, passed by my office and i saw the same cisco officer who did duty with me during national day guiding the people to the padang flag forming. LOL so damn qiao. he remembers me too ahahahahaha waved hi and headed to laupasat too damn hungry...

as soon as we entered the satay place the blatant touters were blatantly touting like nobody's business. darn i hate em but i was still too hungry. well i decide where i wanna sit rather thn letting thm directing me to their place.

thn this guy was like "eh boss, we got satay powerrr, prawn powerrr, what u want to eat eh boss?" "if u feeling hungry i suggest you take the combo 2 boss, 38 dollars only, got 10 steek prawn powerrr, 10 steek beef and mutton powerrr, 20 stick chicken powerr, so boss how?"

in the end we ordered combo 1 thn half the amt and a hokkien mee and a jug of tiger. and im so damn stuffed.

trains till 1.30am and we headed home. tired. full. exhilarated. deaf. lol.

gotta join denise keller at the paddock next year. dream. on.

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eagle eye was quite a smart movie and quite plot intensive and captivating although very far fetched. fell asleep whn they were talking and woke up agn ahahaha...

dunno why it tickles me abit with the orh. :) hehe.

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不敢说。但还是很关心。
想见。多么想。

Yves Saint Laurent L'Homme

am a sucker for such things.

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淡淡。冷冷。暗暗。冰冰。沉沉。夜夜。

一天。一夜。一夜。一天。

学着落叶落地。

没事了。

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冲啊！加油！

不够的话,我去买V Power 98帮你加!

I sat in an Integra today

my feet was like 15 cm above the ground nia.

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by popular demand, this was our dream like many years ago. and i've heard we got a new potential member. so yeah, here's our dream and u can be part of it. pic wasn't really well done cos it's like lousy tools and my skills sucked and many years back but better thn nothing.

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我会加油。你也要加油。

I was part of the history

but I didn't have enough cash to get the F1 bear. sigh...

pics and vids to be up soon.

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i m th 1 bng prtctv nd bsd nd ll tht.
i ws th 1 tht cnvyed th "grndlss ccstns".
im th 1 thts th mst cpbl f mssng thngs p.
再一次，多一个。

guess who's back online

after like near 2 months of hiatus. forced hiatus.

anyone missed me?

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nauseous since monday, i'd give it another week.

I haven't said this to you for a long time, so...

加油!!! 加油!!! 让我来声援你!!!

no matter how tiring work is and how fucked up things (or me) may be. well if nothing's bad then cheers! =)

加油!!!

floooooo

damn the flu. 2 weeks not enough.

i give u 3 more days to recover.

gonna run after that irregardless.

Zup Jee Lian Huay

It's a great movie. My parents didn't like it though. Cos they thought 881 was nicer. Probably 881 is more cheerful.

Zup Jee Lian Huay is quite a depressing movie actually. A very sad story.

Nicely timed inserts of the songs seriously triggers heartfelt sadness for the characters.

Some songs were nicely remixed as well.

Please watch the movie if you understand hokkien. Sure to dehydrate you by the end of the movie.

Oh well.

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"Bo ai, manna wu tia. Bo tia, manna wu ai."

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i can feel it when people are keeping a certain distance. It looked like it but it might not be it, different actions done on different people of the same group.
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I'd say 3 days. Be optimistic.

afloat afloat. still.

one good thing about being tall is that even if i don't know how to swim, my head is still above the 1.7 metres pool.

i found my "a million little pieces". fictitious book labeled in non-fiction health column lol.

spin spin spin.

sway sway sway.

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if i think it's right, it's probably wrong.

chat

oso cannot liao. everything broke down just like that.

foresee 2 weeks - 1 month of offlining.

nothing to go home to.

shall try my best to keep my head above the water.

hmmm... heard this song in the movie just now...

these are not the exact words, but it roughly translate into these. apt song apt timing in the movie.

江蕙 -- 家后

有一日咱若老 找无人将咱孝顺
我会陪你坐硬椅条
听你讲少年的时候 你有多贤
吃好吃坏无计较 怨天怨地也不会
你的手　我会将你牵牢牢
因为我是你的妻子
有一日咱若老 有媳妇子儿孝顺
你若无聊 拿咱的相片
看从前结婚的时候 你多英俊
穿好穿坏不计较 怪东怪西也不会
你的心　我会永远记牢牢
因为我是你的妻子
我将青春嫁给你家　
我从少年就随你随到老
人情世事也已经看透透
有啥人比你更重要
我的一生献给你家
才知幸福是吵吵闹闹
等待回去的时候若到
我会让你先走　
因为我会不舍 放你为我眼泪流
你要让我先走
因为我会不舍
看你为我眼泪流
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i made breakfast for later and lunch too.

things i usually can't do before i go to work i did them before i slept.

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strawberry chocolates waiting for me at workplace.

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i will because i will. i will make it.

not very godlike

i can do better.



need some new pants. hehe.

稳住稳住！

三分天注定，七分靠打拼
要拼才会赢!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

try. trying. trying days.

a belated one, since i just got hold of the pics.

here's the group of people i have not seen since my last exams, with the exception of 2 whom i've never seen before. a friend's friend. and a friend's bf.


notice that the martell is already drying up. whaddya expect? 9 people leh... and my face is not stern for that reason. maybe just a long day. hmm, we are adults now. adults drink mar-teh or 人马标.


i was caught unaware by this shot. my foot. hmmm... don't know what got into me. 7th month? hmm simply idiotic look. i meant drew.


hmmm, recently i like to doodle on pics. all the people are here but who are they?


here's a little bit of explaination of who's who...


after 1.30am the couples got tired and left me, wt and friend for an additional round of beer. plus some bar games lesson for me. i am like a small innocent boy when it comes to this and they are like 2 years younger. then another of her friend drove her fren and them for supper which i didn't go. like extra if i did.

please organise another soon. xie xie.

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great walk from town to cluck kway tht day. im just a tad sleepy. plus i ain't pregnant.

who doesn't have immediate unreasonable wants?

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AbMan mix WhGT = cheap and good but felt like kenna sledgehammered when i woke up.

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sent my meizu m6 for repairs. the battery life is dying. knn not covered by warranty. kept avoiding the question of when is it gonna come back to me. ccb who gives a shit about the factory shutting down 2 weeks because of the games.

i gonna miss it for at least 6 weeks i guess. darker days to come.

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meanwhile "my friend leonard" by james frey is a very captivating book. dark sides of thoughts meticulously put into words.

especially page 9 line 18 word 3 to 6. it's like drawing out a symmetry. like a mirror. i want to hold on too. trying.

"breaking dawn" is OUT OMFG!!! i wanna read! but i don't wanna buy lol. wait for library to have available copies can die waiting de. watch out for the movie adaptation of the first book of the series, "twilight". forbidden to remember. terrified to forget.

need to find "a million little pieces"

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:) to be able to @_@ (*^.^*) after like....hmm...

稳住稳住！！

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i have been real good :)

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this week at work i foresee there will be alot of lppl things happening.

hmmm...

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well, i hope it's because of i slept alot last night.

wahahahaha some rants in a long time.

finding solace in

familiar place(s).

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习惯苦瓜的苦涩，不代表苦瓜不会苦.

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vodka jello needs some experimenting.

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only the doll ever said elee to me. lol, just something that just dawned on me.

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稳住，稳住.

Some people sing like coq with full set of teeth(me), while some sing like they can have their own records with 3 missing

er hem, by the way the chicken mid wings are darn crispy albeit cold.

尽管痛楚缠牙，你还是跟两个大男孩赴约了。 掌声鼓励鼓励！！！

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就。。。
这样啰。。。

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brewerkz

i went to brewerkz for dinner today with bertz and THE ONE WHO'S BACK FROM AUSSIE aka NKM aka sereneng.

the oatmeal stout tasted like cereal. :)
the fruitbrew was refreshing.
the pilsner was good when cold.
the seafood spaghetti comes with many many seafood.
my fish and chips was darn nice. :)

but the highlight of the day was this:


with the godlike seal of approval. shalln't describe it here. u gotta taste it for urself, pics to be up soon.

well, cost me like 2 mths of my pay for the meal but it's money well spent. :)

chilled at the Clinic after that and thts all folks!

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just shine the spotlight and i'll come running to save the day.





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Got web meh?

btw i just had 猫山王 durian from geylang brought back by my bro. is like more godlike than godlike... but i damn full now...

and i came across this just now:

"Whereof one cannot speak, thereof one must be silent."

Logical isn't it? Where the situation doesn't allow you to speak, or you have no intention of speaking, or you simply cannot speak, the inaction itself leads to only 1 result, that is you being silent, not talking, keeping mum, making incoherent sounds but incomprehensible.

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eyes closing... beep beep beep beep

determined

actually i wanted to say in person that:

I will not allow the past Me to come back again.
I am determined to keep on going the past months and not render it an illusion.

Never will I "throw away the million dollar winning toto ticket" and jeopardised it like I did because of my stupidity, ever.

Whatever it takes.

I will make it work, for as long as possible. =)

That is if, you allow it.

:P

it's a fun day!

glad that things are better for you.
i saw that smile i haven't seen in ages.
hee =)
onwards to work tomorrow! chiong!
i just need to adjust abit. i'm just afraid to be getting used to the attention/attention given/time spent with and then i screw it all up again by my stupid behaviour when the inevitable happens just like i did the last time.
didn't mean to spoil the day, if i did. i will be more positive, or at least try to appear so!

I don't think I know that guy

but twice he said hi when he jogged past me/i jogged past him 40 minutes later.

anyways.

i think i had too much candy.

or i'm not sure if it's the candy.

but after i came back i bathed.

and had a few more pieces.

I'm trying to come up with the following:
- what i would crave to eat tomorrow.
- what i would like to do very much tomorrow.

sat and sun! woohoo~~~!

从前的模样又悄悄的浮现

再做一次心理准备吧。

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learning to breathe with lesser and lesser and maybe finally no air.

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Wednesday 25/06 Around evening time.

After the don't-care-whether-got-another-interview-just-sign-the-damn-contract issue, I decided to have dinner.

Taka's basement got a decent omu rice stall. Kinda expensive though. 10 dollars for a set meal with a bottle of drink.

I've got One Piece #47 as company.

Didn't know where to go, so...

I paid Lyn a visit at Far East Plaza. 老板娘就是老板娘.

And she went off to meet her friend 20 minutes later.

Wanted to take a bus but all looked full.

Walked back to the Orchard Station to take the mrt.

The journey felt long enough, I guessed I dozed off as soon I found a seat with One Piece in my hands.

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Short note: I hope it was edible. o_o

Hi, my name is Du Lan. People call me Si Bei Du Lan.

1) It's late at night. Traffic is easily maneuverable.

2) I'm borrowing the car not to play. I need to go print my resume for tomorrow's interview. But my friend is going to be back only at 11.30pm or even later.

3) Alternatively, I could take a bus and wait like an idiot there and come home by cab. Or to cab there and back when the time is up.

4) I admit I'm not very steady at driving. But it's night time. They'd rather I take bus. At last my mom gave up, say "take cab la take cab la".

5) Now. Reasonably speaking, did my logic fail me or am I being unreasonable?

6) I think I'm being unreasonable because I asked if I could borrow the car to drive to my friend's place (as I need to print out my resume) because
- I've got a driving license
- night time's traffic conditions is too congested and challenging for an amateur driver like me
- I'm an amateur driver unsuitable to drive a pickup
- Bukit Panjang is too far a place to drive to for an amateur driver like me. The journey is too perilous and difficult to negotiate and I will definite get into accidents should I venture through the dark straight roads alone.

7) My logic failed me because apparently taking a cab with midnight charges seems cheaper than letting me drive. Don't ever let me drive folks! I sure buang your car! Just ask my parents how bad and worrying my driving is.

8) Of course I'd like to enjoy the feeling of cruising on the roads but I think I'd do it in a vehicle more suitable for cruising. I am not fucking desperate to drive, or else I would take over my dad the chance that I fucking get despite the constant nagging of "go slow go slow!!!" when I'm travelling at 70km/h.

I just would enjoy the slight freedom of having the car and using it at times like this when I needed it most. Especially for occasions like today, printing of resumes for interview tomorrow and my friend isn't back till midnight and I can't foresee that I can turn to anyone for printing of stuff tomorrow.

9) Oh. You want to tell me I should have it printed during the day and/or earlier before? How about I tell you the motherfuckin agency called me at 7pm today telling me the employer would like to interview me tomorrow 5pm? My friends would be in camp/working/school so I deserved all the bad karma for seeking help today.

10) The conversation with my mom after asking for the car is redundant. Note that I've already explained all the above to her. Where I'm going to print. What time I'm going over. What time I'm coming back. What time my friend is coming back later today.

She said even she's in the car when I'm driving she's abit scared. Now that she's not in car she even more worried. My mom cares about me, no doubt =)

But she asked
- where I'm going to do the print
- why I don't want to take a bus there and why I'm still at home (at 10pm) I should take a bus there first and wait there (this is my fault I should have gone there earlier and wait there for 2 hours for my friend to come back)
- why cannot print tomorrow (I failed to let her understand the issue of timing. I needed it by tomorrow 4pm latest before the interview. I failed to let her understand people need to work/go camp/study during the day time and not like me bumming around at home)
- why there's a need to take a cab (due to the question "why cannot go tomorrow" erm anyone knows why must I take a cab to and fro my destination (note: Bukit Panjang) at 12 midnight?)

I can only come to a conclusion that she heard what I said but doesn't listen to me. Like always. As usual.

Lastly she said
"take cab la take cab la"

Wasting money on cabs to and fro is better than letting me drive.

Conclusion is, I can forever be trying to borrow the damn car and not succeeding, or I win the toto and buy a bloody car myself, or I can wait till I'm 30 years old with stable income and savings and own a car myself.

I mentioned in some older posts what my 2nd bro told me, and this incident reminded myself of that. “要驾车啊？自己买啰！我以前要借也是接不到.”

And I got my bloody license at 20 years old. Dear all. Don't bother getting a license if your parents especially disapprove you driving alone.

Sibei Dulan. It's the same old shit again.

I gonna take cab at night be it for official or non-official reasons so as not to disobey my parents.

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Someone send me this email. I'd just post it part of it here.

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Guy's point of view
> >This is very cute! And even written by a guy!
> You might agree with it, but when it actually happens 99% of girls don't realize it 'til it is too late
> > and that guy who did it is so frustrated that he has moved on to someone who will take notice.
> > From a guys point of view:
> > We don't care if you talk to other guys.
> We don't care if you're friends with other guys.
> But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room
> > and you jump up and tackle him without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.
> It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.
> > We don't care if a guy calls you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.
> > Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. that it can't wait till he morning.
> > Also, when we tell you you're pretty/beautiful/gorgeous/cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.
> Don't tell us we're wrong.We'll stop trying to convince you.
> > The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.
> > Yeah, you can quote me.
> > Don't be mad when we hold the door open.
> > Take Advantage of the mood im in.
> > LET US PAY FOR YOU! DON'T 'FEEL BAD'
> We enjoy doing it.
> It's expected.
> Smile and say 'thank you.'
> > Kiss us when no one's watching.
> If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.
> > You don't have to get dressed up for us.
> If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the
> > need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own.
> We like you for WHO you are and not WHAT you are.
> Honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's.
> Or my t-shirt and boxers, not all dolled up.
> > Don't take everything we say seriously.
> Sarcasm is a beautiful thing.
> See the beauty in it.
> Don't get angry easily.
> > Stop using magazines/media as your bible.
> Don't talk about how hott Morris Chesnutt, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us.
> It's boring, and we don't care.
> You have girlfriends for that.
> > Whatever happened to the word 'handsome'/'beautiful'.
> I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with 'Hey handsome!' instead of 'Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy' or whatever else you can think of.
> On the other hand im not sayin i wouldn't like it either.
> > Girls: I cannot stress this enough: IF YOU AREN'T BEING TREATED RIGHT BY A GUY, DON'T WAIT FOR HIM TO CHANGE.
> DITCH HIS SORRY DISGRACE-TO-THE-MALE-POPULATION ASS, AND FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL TREAT YOU WITH UTTER RESPECT
> Someone who will honor your morals.
> Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.
> Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.
> Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.
> Someone who will stop what theyre doing just to look you in the eyes....and say 'i love you' ..........AND ACTUALLY MEAN IT!
> > Give the nice guys a chance
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Don't play with a young child who's with his mother and grandmother, because the grandmother will refer you to the child as uncle or AUNTIE. =)

"你在跟AUNTIE玩啊?"=)
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Curry Favor: To seek or gain favor by fawning or flattery

For those who think they love Japanese curry but have never been to Curry Favour, THINK AGAIN.

For those who wants to go but never had the chance, call me.

For those who had been there and die-also-want to go back, call me.

For those who are excited by the pictures of the food (er, if it was my picture, then...), and want to visit the place, call me.

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A twice a year outing =) We set foot on this place:


The menu!


Great ambience, especially before the meal times. It's rather conducive for conversations. Once it reaches the meal times, people started flooding in the restaurant as if there's free food served.

Me. I have the ability of not knowing that I was being taken picture of.


I still can't decide between a curry stew or katsu curry. And death by chocolate or Matcha Cheesecake-ala-mode. And the drinks. Man, all of them looked so good it's tough making a choice yannoe?


The entrees come with either miso soup or a salad. Oh well, I wished they let me have both though. HMMMMM.....


Close up, close up! See the corn kernels? Nope, it's nothing special. It's the salad dressing. I remember tasting it at Tonkichi before. But till now what it actually is remains a mystery to me.


Hot Chocolate! No, I didn't order this, as much as I loved chocolate. I wanted to get the iced chocolate from JCO Donuts at Raffles City's basement. Sigh. Sold out everytime. EVERY SINGLE TIME. (I was contemplating to get the matcha milkshake but.... my dessert...)
swirl swirl chocolate swirl~~~~

This, is a godlike item. It looks like fried mussels from MOS burger dunchathink? But no. Introducing the 'Stuffed Mushrooms'! Button mushrooms stuffed with mashed seafood (prawns? fish? squid?), dipped in batter and fried till golden brown. OMFG. You gotta taste it to believe it.
Comes with 3 sauces too! Godlike!

Here's the highlight of the day. Pork stew! However, it is damn good. I repeat. IT IS DAMN GOOD. The meat is tender. Very tender. I thought it will be tough to chew because stews I've tasted so far were like that. I ordered the spicy version and I thank myself(GODLIKE) for that. As the regular version tasted abit bland, not too sweet though, to my liking. I don't like those super sweet curries which tasted like those convenient japanese curries.
This ungodlike picture is not taken by me.

Seriously, are you sure you are not hungry just by looking at this?
Close up! This is a godlike picture taken by me!

Are you very sure? Seriously the serving is quite big. But I still polished off the rice as I don't wanna waste the curry. OMG I can imagine the taste in my mouth now.
And this godlike picture too!

Fish Cheese Katsu! It's a nice alternative if you don't feel like eating pok(i can't resist misspelling this) or chee-kennn~!(come ah! you not happy issit want to fight ar? Chee-kennn~~!). I digressed. But, I can imagine how the pok cheese katsu taste, the cheese oozing out, the curry over it, omg.......


Apple crumble-ala-mode. A slice of warm apple crumble served with a scoop of vanilla icecream. Quite decent! Maybe I prefer Gelare's version better and I get to choose the flavour of the ice-cream. But I didn't order this for myself.


The matcha cheesecake-ala-mode. The cheesecake reminds me of nonya kueh or agar agar. The top layer being the cheese(kueh like texture), the second layer being the red bean (WOOHOO! agar agar like texture) and the bottom layer being the green tea flavoured kueh agar agar mixed texture. And of course there's a biscuity base~~ Ok la, quite decent... BUT~~~~~~~~~~~
I order one, of course godlike~

The matcha ice cream is GODLIKE, and so I've heard curry favour is famous for the matcha ice cream... smooth and creamy texture with the fragrance of matcha....YUM YUM~~


Total bill comes up to be about $84 inclusive of service charge and GST. Seriously with food this good and good ambience, you can't really complain about the price. It's 1 appetizer + 2 entrees + 2 desserts + 1 beverage mind you.

Well this is the adventures of the 1-year-2-times-outing!

The end.
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Kotek discovered dopey songs again!!

Very... yeee moh lyrics i feel..

Erm, I can't find the official vid, but this is as dope!



Skillet Lyrics
The Last Night Lyrics

This night is so long when everything's wrong
If you give me your hand and I'll help you hold on.

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EDITTED:
Ooops i found a live version. Christian rock band, i know, but i choose to relate the song to something else.


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I'm free.

Sooper Recharged!!!

You casted the gray skies of mine away.

never felt better so instantaneously. =) like 3 in 1 coffee just add water lol.

(>_<)

nice

caught a cold i guess.

had the pains before the run and now....

小朋友们晚上睡觉时记得盖被哦！叔叔有练过的。。。




stop beating.
now.
no one will know.
there as you lie.
and sleep.

It's starting to sink in.

The feeling I should feel.

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Hmm i'm not having fever

but i'm like having pains all over.

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Remember to smile later on.
Remember to smile when you are outside.
=)




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old song i heard over radio today.

没有承诺
却被你抓得更紧
没有了你
我的世界雨下个不停

特别的爱给特别的你
你让我越来越不相信自己

我还听见
你的声音
轻轻芸饶着我的心

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我还不能
接受分离
就是永远不能在一起

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她真的已经告诉你了

A: I think we'll just leave it at here.
B: I understand. =)

我。

追寻。
没了。

价值?
没了。

原因？
没用。

我。

graphic stolen from min's blog

B is B no more, and A isn't as well.

=) i'm fine.

the kfc toasted wrap is teh nice! woohoo! but i think i wouldnt have it anytime soon i guess. i can feel my taf building up.

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hmm i need a flask.
my notebook's almost full too.

wah i feel like ktv but running low on dough.

the ferrero rondnoir is simply timely. glad that i bought it! keeping my spirits high@@woohoo~~

i must watch my weight le~~~~ ah!!! so many chocos!!!! OH ANOTHER SPOIL OF THE DAY YESTERDAY IS THE ORANGE FLAVOURED CHOCOLATE!

i din really eat OFC and like it because it's milk choco. BUT THIS PARTICULAR ONE I BOUGHT...*DRUMROLLS* IS 75% DARK CHOCO AND STILL ORANGE FLAVOURED!!!!

im guessing there's some serious noir buffs out there inventing such stuffs.

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PC show was okay i guess, as crowded as usual. im glad i haf meiz + kotek as company this time. HTC TOUCH DIAMOND IS TEH ROXXOR~!

i remember last year quite loser/loner where i went to the show myself, go visit a friend who is working at the bookfair and saw my fellow loner there LOL who is none other than Bert. I guess he won't be in the club after this year heh!!!!!

caught up with the poly guys as usual~~ well... heh....

the movie ending is...

heart warming.

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Random Pics!


I guess this was what I have feared and came true and sorta what I expected. "till I hear from A personally." It really did.

I've got acute sixth sense i think.

and the special lv3 ability to step on her toes.

但你说
i only want to be your friend
做个朋友
我在
你心中只是just a friend
不是情人
我感激你对我这样的坦白
但我给你的爱暂时收不回来

but i can live with that, i can be just a friend =) always, hee.

just that i hope that we won't be awkward even while chatting over msn. ^-^

sorry for making you feel uncomfy, was never my intention, but im sorry it turned out like that. and also for being so thick skinned to have appeared oblivious to your ever subtle signs.

i was just running away from the inevitable. it caught up eventually. i know i shouldn't be at the party at all. making things awkward for you. so that you'd even need to half ignore me and so you said.

can't we just talk? oh msn.

as long as you're confortable with it.



我的世界将被摧毁
也许颓废也是另一种美。

我的世界已被摧毁
颓废是一种美。

我已被摧毁
颓废是美。

摧毁
颓废。

Friday the 13th, 11:47am
突然的找我,好久你没有主动PM我了，是好事吗?

Friday the 13th, 11:49am
"i just didn't feel gd half ignoring u, but it was really a tad awkward."

Friday the 13th, 12:03noon
"i think the way we catch up on msn is fine as it is
let's just leave it at this ok?"

这就是我在等待的，当你说‘就保持现状，msn就好’，以意味着我在你的世界已是多余的。
说是松了口气，倒不如是晴天来的一阵霹雳。

是突然的。
却不是偶然。
是意料之中。
却不是容易接受的。

"but i think its better for our friendship as well
or else would u have preferred me to take the 'ignore' route"
i guess i can take it if you'd really do it. i've been through it some years ago i think.

你所说的餐约，我想，亦不会实现。

谢谢你在我生命的篇章中留下些许的色彩。
刻骨铭心。

sorry for making you feel uncomfy,
it was never my intention,
but im sorry it had to turn out like that.

intention or not, i have caused you much troubles. it's me i agree.

this time i didn't even need to try.

and also for being so thick skinned to have appeared oblivious to your ever subtle signs. as i said. earlier on.

i think i am repeating things but... ...



我猜
你早就想要说明白
我觉得自己好失败
从天堂掉落到深渊
多无奈

i guess no amount of self pity will change the outcome any.

i guess there's no difference, 100 to 88 to 140 to 96.

the looks part failed, and the person is the problem.

just keep on looking. and look.

and look.

只有‘look'的份.

and that's it.

just 'look'. at others.

at her.



the same thing happens, over and over again.
didn't need to even try hard.
didn't even need to try.

爱，远离我。

当我翻开辞海，我却找不到‘爱’。

my experiences tell me that, “痛到不能再痛，就感觉不到痛了。”
不过这次，我会忍。

一杯就好。
麻醉了比较好睡。
不痛了之后就够了。

all these are proven true. yet again.
1) not good looking at all, failure of 1st impression and all the others
2) not financially independent
3) nothing to like about, no talents (can't play musical instrument or play sports really well or even ride a bike)
4) can't even do the ending right, saying the wrong words even at the end
5) over imposing presence
6) a good friend but that's all i'd ever be
7) different kinda status. door doesn't meet door
8) thick headed to act oblivious to all the obvious signs

i need to stop whining soon. if not the same thing will happen again. as it did. again.

stop whining about this stop whining about this.

just stop.

hold my breath.


A and B is no more. =) but hope we're still friends =)



>_< says (12:20 PM):
erm A~
>_< says (12:20 PM):
seriously dun worry abt it anyway
>_< says (12:20 PM):
er
>_< says (12:20 PM):
anymore
>_< says (12:20 PM):
i noe what ur saying
>_< says (12:21 PM):
hope ya dun haf to worry every time we chat here
>_< says (12:21 PM):
maybe a pity tht the meal will not take place
>_< says (12:21 PM):
but no worries
>_< says (12:21 PM):
take care!






i'd been in the sky since i met you. hit the ground a few times but i got back up there anyway because i want to present only my smiles to you. not that it is worth anything, but it just formed the minute i know you're there.

only when the frequency of falling increases, then i realised the reason why.

i fell to see you again.

i fell.

for you.

and this maybe the last time i'd ever get the chance to fall again.

i thank you for getting me over the last fall, and for putting me back down now where i first looked up then to see you, again.

let me wallow in this for awhile.



it's a piece of my life i'd never get back.......

4 songs here guess what songs????
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雨 不停落下来 花 怎麼都不开
尽管我细心灌溉 你说不爱就不爱 我一个人 欣赏悲哀
只要你能愉快

你要我听这一首歌 用这首歌离开我

是不是上帝在我眼前遮住了帘
忘了掀开

为什麽爱上你的人是我
为什麽一厢情愿的人会难过
为什麽对你舍不得 总是我
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我还能笑的。=）
I still can smile. =)







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