damn i still haven started studdyyiiinnnngggggggg~~~~~~~~~~`

yeshhhh~ prmp was fine.

oritey. 1 down 2 to go. please do not let me play my games nor touch this computer too much. i hope to start btbm today and iaf tomorrow. dun let me deviate off my study track and i hope those comics wun ask me to read them. same to you ps2! stop asking me to play you!!!!!

shit. tml is my first paper.

damn and im still blogging. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

finally can start btbm.

oh my. i need strength again to start on another module.

hmm zhang hui mei's ren zhi is very nice~~~~

人质

歌手：张惠妹 专辑：我要快乐

我和你啊存在一种危险关系 彼此挟持这另一部份的自己 本以为这完整了爱的定义 那就乖乖的守护着你 相爱变成猜忌怀疑的烂游戏 规则是要憋着呼吸越靠越近 但你的温柔是我唯一沉溺 你是爱我的就不怕有缝隙 在我心上用力的开一枪 让一切归零在这声巨响 如果爱是说什么都不能放 我不挣扎反正我也没差 人质在这一刻得到释放 相爱的纯粹落得如此下场 你满意吗我们都别说谎

i blogged this at 12midnight.

refering to the post i blogged on me bday. one of them will not come true. Number chwelf.

bday presents received will stay at 1. ahahahahahaha.

is like i knew about it long ago but it suddenly dawned on me.

wats it like to open a box and say "OMG YOU KNEW!! THTS WAT I WANTED!!!! "

please tell me?

ahahaha and i counted down!!!

it has lost the special meaning specially for tht day.

what is it for?

heavily commercialised?

okie im bitching about my own forgotten day. ahahahaha forget it.

tokking about bitching, its human nature to keep bitching and bitching about something that has happened like eons ago and u still can bitch for like centuries later. ahahaha. skali i will bitch about it in camp next year!! ahahahahaa. haa. ha... hmmm...

time flies. i heard my mom saying to my aunties during the malacca trip in hokkien "jit geh gia tio lee zup ni liao" meaning i very handsome. no la, aahahahaha, it means a son lidat lidat 20 years liao. thn they went on saying last time i was still in their cradling arms and now its my turn to cradle them in my arms.

20 years. how long is that? one fifth of a century? 240 months? i think it passes so fast cos i spent most of it playing and wasting time and stuff. (dun tell me u didnt cos when u were still babies there were no exams no stress no worries and primary school exams were nothing compared to now)

the next 20 years? i think it will be non stop challenges. work. livelihood. family.

onwards to menopause and receding hairline!!!!

ahhaahhaa.

orite. i shall try to study.

please give me strength to touch my notes and actually study it.

i wonder hows pepe.

Fine Uranium Can Kill YOU.

damn it. i cant study again. the real papers is coming monday coming monday.

and i only started pr started pr.

i got 3 bleddy papers bleddy papers.

hows i dunno hows dunno hows.

orite im getting a little jittery.

sigh. i suddenly thought of my birthday.

sigh.

i found this on the net. wat a sense of humour~!

enjoy~~~~~

malacca trip. 6 hours. zzzz.

ahh. first day was abit the sianz. started the long trip to malacca at jurong east. the bus was cramped and i only had 1 sip of the coffee before being called onto the bus. crossing the tuas 2nd link and voila im in malaysia. changed to a better bus before moving in deep.

as always the first few stops were either sightseeing or shopping in some tourist shops. but before this we stopped at some coffee shop near the customs and had breakfast. wah lau the pau damn big sia. they called it 叶子梅大肉包 selling at 3.50 rm each. piangs. was darn full before finishing it and there was the sucky fish balls. smells sia.

after all the shopping, our next destination was TiTi ecofarm resort. its deep in the mountains of kedai (i think, or was it malacca?). the place is emersed in nature. the view was great. the rooms were stuffy. zzz. the haf balconies near the cliffs sia. the view is breathtaking. i wish i can upload pictures now but i shall do it tml. ahahaha.

you thought living in the mountains we'll have 山珍 for meals. NOPE. we had what mountains have most, GRASS, LEAVES, VEGETABLES, FLOWERS for meals and tea made out of them. they keep talking about recycling and health and enzymes and their products and shits and urine and stuff. piangs. lunch was horrendous. they call it 有机 organic meals. seriously all of their vegetables and got half a kampong chicken. talking about "有鸡". darn it.

dinner was worse. sian 1/2 sia. some steamboat stuff with the soup smelling burnt. the soup wun boil and we quite eating. we haf to set our own tables and wash our own plates is like wat the hell can!

but after that was nice. THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I SAW FIREFLIES. DARN THEY ARE BEAUTIFUL. BLUE LIGHT SIA! LIKE LED ON THE HANDPHONES! AHAHAHA. AND TAKE LANTERNS TO FIND THEM SOMEMORE. VERY NICE!!! hmm the fireflies seriously pretty. and the stars above are uncountably beautiful. in sg you can count em with your fingers....

was dead beat by the time we finished the search and we still have to listen to the owner of the eco resort chanting sutras before the lucky draw and all that. zzz. HE REALLY CAN talk but no one wants to listen. it was almost 12 before we were released and bathe and slept.

next day's breakfast was great. rice milk and rice kueh and steamed bread. ahahah thts the best meal of all. after that we toured around the eco farm but we veered off their tracks and did some exploring of our own.

i came to know many plants. got 1 even can squirt water like water gun! ahahaha. thn i saw 2 snails longer thn my fingers. thts big!! i saw passion fruits hanging on vines and dragon fruit growing on something like a cactus. my mom digged out a turnip and cleaned it and we started munching on it. FRESH would be an appropriate word. ahahah.

saw the papayas on trees in abundance. 1 tree was like hanging 20 over papayas ahahahah.

i love the view from the mountains in the morning. its foggy and it feels that i am a 神仙 ahahaha.

left the place by 11am and headed to some bee farm. i tasted all different kinds of honey and most of them tasted great! got royal jelly, propolis, bee venom honey etc etc. thn the bees were like flying around like no body's business but they were too busy delivering the honey back to their hives. ahaha

next was lunch. MEAT RULES. they all tasted of heaven. dim sum was nice but service abit slow. in malaysia they have normal restaurants the size of an expo exhibition hall lor.

Went to visit the hang tuah kampong and the legendary well which a white croc resided in according to the legend. my mom bought more stuff there while i just looked and see.

dinner time at some restaurant at johor bahru before heading home. hmm, well a smaller normal restaurant. the food tasted okay but doesnt taste expensive though ahahahaha~~~

on the way back we received some famous otahs that we placed orders awhile back and i just cooked them and they all tasted great! budden 6 rm each leh.

headed home by 6 and reached sg by 7.30 and went thru customs by 8.10 and home sweet home by 9 thanks to my dad fetching us from the pickup point. =D

i forgot to mention. during all the bus rides, as much as i wanted to stay awake to see the views and sceneries i kept dozing off and woke up dunno how many hours later and still haven reach destination!!!

its was a nice trip cos of the things i saw i cud never have seen in sg. but i dint get to do my shopping! i want my wallet!!! zzzzz. the snails, the stars, the fireflies, the people, the place. oh my.

even though it was an auntie trip i managed to see 1 mei mei. niceeee ahahahahahaah~~~~

healthy eating= 6 parts of veggies 2 parts of fruits 1 part of proteins and 1 part of carbohydrates. the owner say until i can remember. enzymes is very important to our bodies. it is imperative to replenish the plant source enzymes by eating raw organic veggies and fruit. blah blah. i shallnt go to the part where he kept emphazing on lighter and non smelly bowels and lighter coloured pee.

i wanted to sneak in bubble gums but my aunties and mom scared. wat the hell. but then managed to sneak 4 sticks in. if one of u all managed to get one, be honoured! customs is strict nowsadays cos of the guns cases in sg.

and of course 2 packs of mml. tht costs cheaper even cheaper thn in sg even when i bought 2. zzz.

ahaha long post ya? tml shall be photoblogging day. or tml tml. or tml tml tml. depending if i have the connection or not! aahahahahaha

nitey nite~!

im going to malacca tml.

short trip though 2 day 1 night. ahahhaa. i doubt malacca got anything to see and buy.

sianzzz.... gotta wake up at 5.00 am. thts early man. since when i have woke up at 5 am. darn.

will be back by sunday. tata.

okie im loser to blog twice a day.

but i really sianz. who wanna sup with me today?

no one to play ps2 with me.

no one to sup with me.

how siaaa~~~~

bd is over. i cannot believe it. i will miss the times we slogged. i will not miss the projects.

mmit test is a waste of time.

everything happens for a reason. just ask yourself probably the answer will dawn on you.

dont give stupididiotic reasons that can be checked and that is not reasonable when rejecting an offer.

dont blame people to dua you when you yourself do this kind of thing.

sometimes its a about reciprocation. pple nice to you in the past.

sigh sianz. i din do anything like that. my friend did.

i wonder how pepe is doing.

this owl is cute. oh really? ahahahaha

i cant seem to study at home. just like monday. darn it.

tml got test got bd presentation. die la....

well. had a nice day yesterday after the bleddy test. ahahha if not for minz bday.

shopped a few hours sia. never go bpp to shop for bday present again. at least will vomit 2 pails of blood. ahaahhaha

hmm kia got car to drive. zzz.

sian whens my turn?

i forgot to add in one thing.

my arms are limp cos of arms wrestling with my uncles and 1 cousin.

i lost to my uncle even though he 1/3 of my size. they young time got train la ahahahaha muscle big and strong. got mouse one ah mai siao siao.

i almost lost to my cousin who is almost as tall as me but smaller by alot. hengs i endure and won. left and right hand ahahahahahahahaha~

darn i studied only 2 chapters of uccd. 3 more to go. test is tomorrow. die.

sigh. please gimme strength to stay away from the computer, ps 2, gba and comics.

please. i gotta study today.

tml is uccd tests. chiong ar!

tired. arms limp.

well. went to relatives house and had dinner. met up with cousins and one of them is facing a dilema of choosing of 3 courses he dunno have interest in, or study 1 more year sec 5, score better and have better choice.

you all might think 2nd option is the best. i adviced him to follow his interest. cos, poly offers specialised diplomas. if u aint interested in it, 3 years can be hell.

well. i borrowed a gba game entitled "gundam seed battle assault" from my cousin. the game is ubercool.

anyway. sianz.

tuesday got uccd test. and gotta meet bb for bd slides. zzzz

mmit report finish! now gotta concentrate on bd and tests and exams.

SIGH.

next week is min's bday. i think im getting a ____________ .

aahahahaha

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

i think i need a couple of drinks.

You gotta club with people you know.

And i learnt this the hard way. sianz. by going to club with most people i dunno. on friday.

hmm. at first got other people. but some gave rather unacceptable reasons and fake reasons that can be checked upon.

anyway, the venue is zouk. i like zouk. phuture.

well rushed down and all tht and went for beer first then started clubbing bought drinks people bought drinks 1 for 1 and the birthday boy opened bottles.

i dun like his army frens though cos they treat me like im invisible.

the 2 people i knew and the birthday boy got all the girls and i meant all.

-_-"

they are busying entertaining their sec school frens and frens and girls and i was left out.

i shouldnt have gone in the first place. all thanks to those aholes.

anyway things ended at 4 am when phuture closed and we moved to zouk mainhall and let the speakers thump our ears till 4.40 am.

thn everybody took cab home. i was alone of course cos all of them lives east side. this sucks.

my cab fare amounted to 20 dollars. nabei. and i didnt win toto. cheebuaaaai~

i slept at 5.40 and was awakened at 9 am cos my mom wants me to go extend passport cos next weekened going malacca.

damn it no strength sia.

came back by 1pm and i fell into slumber immediately. till 4.50 my dad woke me up saying got relative wants us over for dinner but in fact is actually today.

we turned up at the relative's door but no one was home. ahahahahaha.

thn we went to watch i not stupid too. okie guys not say i want to say, but this show is Superbly Nicely Done. Hail Jack Neo!!

today i woke up to a nice smell. Nasi Lemak!!! ahahaha, my mom makes wonderful NL and NL chili.

thn did project and played some games and blogged till now and later at 5 gonna go relatives house again!!

sigh. sianz.

today really is the last day of school.

sigh. really ended liaoz!
i bought alot of meiji stuff to support a fren.
i like meiji milk~
ahahaa

sigh. next week is all about tests and projects and exams le.

i hope i can muster enuff strength to go zouk and play my hearts out before all those shit and even though none of my frens except 1 is going.

SIGH.

i wanted to blog so i blogged.

tml is the last day of sch. hopefully it will be nice.
i dun haf my first years results so i cant register for uni. sigh. dun think can oso.

im scared.

When Morning Comes

by Dishwalla

feel the burn feel the demons come to mix fill the street with madness - don't lay your hands and lesions over me fall instead where midnight dies and morning comes feel it here the silence there's so much life here and so much pain - we forget there's so much life as morning comes and its real - the silence see the sun forever falling let the setback slip through the cracks keep us safe from ever crawling let me know a life so sweet there's so much life here and so much pain - we forget there's so much life as morning comes and its real - the silence say you wanted love and you want it to feel so real forever - well remember why you have come and all the shit that's caving in is gone forever

finally semi finals are over. and i just received word that we are in the Finals! i dunno whether to be happy or sianz. more work to be done!

last 2 days of school liao. i suddenly feel abit lost sia. 3 years passed just like that. its gonna be another transitional stage. environment is gonna change again. i dun really like that.

im scared tht with my lousy grades i cant get into any of the U's. sian.

most of all i will miss my friends. oh well.

hows? future is like looking through a cloudy glass of water for me.

wednesday is the semifinals.

hows? liews im scared.

well this was supposed to be blogged yesterday. hmm, here goes:

""this is the last time, that im ever gonna come here tonight. this is the last time i will fall, into a place that fails us all inside."

starting with a dishwalla song. u noe of this song? uber nice though...

im starting to get irritated by projects.

and pepe's on silent mode.

"电话响起了 你要说话了 还以为你心里对我又想念了
怎么你声音变得冷淡了 是你变了 是你变了
灯光熄灭了 音乐静止了 滴下的眼泪已停不住了
天下起雨了 人是不快乐 我的心真的受伤了"

ahaha, why got such a nice song one?

当你走在路上，你会不会停下脚步，喘息？
是否会有种‘世界也会跟着停下’的想法？
望着玻璃映出自己的影子，
自己才是静止的，而你周遭环境却不是。
是故意不动,才显得环境的动静?
是静不下来,周遭显得特别宁静?

动, 是往前看.
静, 则是思考怎么往前看.

ahhh just some crappy chinese short compo i just thought of.

sianzzz.

hmm think i go sleep le....

i wonder hows pepe doing.""

HMMM.

My mom is a wonder woman. after listening to my half grandma say about last time. seriously.

i dint noe some people can be so "奸“ but they got wat they deserved anyway.

my dad's lucky. my mom's lucky too.

tml gonna go meet sec sch frens. hopefully no need do project.

mmit sucked big time. the presentation was a flop. sigh, gotta continue doing it.

i want to take a break over the weekends. sianz.

"i cud go with u~~"

tiring. woke up at 10 am. went to sch from andrew's house. looong way sia.

went to sch for bd. thn skipped btbm to discuss mmit. cos some cbk din come yesterday.

damn it extra work.

tml got presentation fuck sianz.

sent ivan to hospital cos he busted his knees without doing anything. got an angpow from his mom lol.

i need to start on the slides now. byeeee

hmm. gotta go andrew's house later for project. mmit sucks. big time.
sian.
today me and my parents tried to watch i not stupid too for the 2nd time but again, the tix are sold out. AGAIN.
wth so popular meh?