"forbidden to remember, terrified to forget; it was a hard line to walk."
and yes. i'm only fit to be Cornerguy #x. maybe not even.
just a little bit more.
and maybe
not even 6 ft can stop me.
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
Monday, April 07, 2008
if only...
...it was as easy as locating the last copy of the book,
and making that damned effort to go out of the way to the out of the way library,
and searching the racks without finding what i want,
asking the librarian if she had seen the book.
after 10 minutes of excruciating wait,
pacing around with dry panic,
she emerges with the book in black cover.
"New moon".
and no it isn't.
you're the bella, and i'm beginning to feel i'd never be edward.
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this is what i'm crazy about.
and they're coming out with a movie...
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1099212/
trailer and one of my favourite song.
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im now at new moon.
the more i read, the more i set myself in, and imagining stuff.
however, the more i read,
the faster the end arrive,
and what's left to hold in memories?
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isabella: "Why are you mad, then?"
edward: "He called you 'pretty'. That's an insult with the way you look tonight. You're much more than beautiful..."
"It's twilight again. The end of another day. The night is so predictable."
and making that damned effort to go out of the way to the out of the way library,
and searching the racks without finding what i want,
asking the librarian if she had seen the book.
after 10 minutes of excruciating wait,
pacing around with dry panic,
she emerges with the book in black cover.
"New moon".
and no it isn't.
you're the bella, and i'm beginning to feel i'd never be edward.
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this is what i'm crazy about.
and they're coming out with a movie...
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1099212/
trailer and one of my favourite song.
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im now at new moon.
the more i read, the more i set myself in, and imagining stuff.
however, the more i read,
the faster the end arrive,
and what's left to hold in memories?
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willingly or unwillingly,
i'm testing my breaking point
as the seconds tick by.
isabella: "Why are you mad, then?"
edward: "He called you 'pretty'. That's an insult with the way you look tonight. You're much more than beautiful..."
"It's twilight again. The end of another day. The night is so predictable."
even if my heart should break
i didn't want you to be the best mistake i've ever made.
痛.
痛.
痛.
痛得不能再痛之后,
就不需要再痛了.
痛.
痛.
痛.
痛得不能再痛之后,
就不需要再痛了.
i never knew that replies can be so...
cold?
kinda changed i guess. without telling what caused the change.
tbe mistakes haunting me again.
thought i yearned for the conversation but.
左上角很久没这么痛过了
if it's some kinda joke please tell me where the camera is.
if it ain't,
i need to survive the day.
kinda changed i guess. without telling what caused the change.
tbe mistakes haunting me again.
thought i yearned for the conversation but.
左上角很久没这么痛过了
if it's some kinda joke please tell me where the camera is.
if it ain't,
i need to survive the day.
Friday, April 04, 2008
Organised thoughts for the night.
1) it's 1.37am already
2) yes i guess i'm retiring to bed after this
3) i think if i don't organise my post this way i'd never be coherent now
4) 王若琳 THE BEST MISTAKE I'VE EVER MADE must have replayed itself 15 times by now
5) i do not think mumbling to oneself is healthy
6) really can feel the contemplation thee days
7) losing is not an option now. myself, tht is
8) prove me wrong by allowing me to open my eyes to renewed faith
9) need sleep
2) yes i guess i'm retiring to bed after this
3) i think if i don't organise my post this way i'd never be coherent now
4) 王若琳 THE BEST MISTAKE I'VE EVER MADE must have replayed itself 15 times by now
5) i do not think mumbling to oneself is healthy
6) really can feel the contemplation thee days
7) losing is not an option now. myself, tht is
8) prove me wrong by allowing me to open my eyes to renewed faith
9) need sleep
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
梦曾几何时是甜的？
我跟你最好就到这
你对我已经没感觉
到这冻止
你也免爱我
我跟你最好就到这
你对我已经没感觉
麦阁伤心
麦阁我这爱你
你不爱我
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yes it doesn't rhyme because it's in dialect.
你对我已经没感觉
到这冻止
你也免爱我
我跟你最好就到这
你对我已经没感觉
麦阁伤心
麦阁我这爱你
你不爱我
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yes it doesn't rhyme because it's in dialect.
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
it was an actioned packed week.
Friday 280308 - Met meiz for dinner @ peppero lunchu and walkingarounds after work and jiale revealing his reason to smile everyday.
Saturday 290308 - Met meiz after school and gua sha for a light snack at cck. The lecturer, an Englishman, seriously is way better than the previous petty Scottish one. Not mentioning his Englishman humour too. Wanted to have Pie-Kia, but instead i was owned by the flatterthanwhativeseenbefore blueberry pie.
Sunday 300308 - Met yw after school for brewerkz dinner and it wasn't disappointing, both the companeh and teh food. And of course teh brewz too. Always nice to update each other of recent happenings (of course the 惊天地泣鬼神讲出来不怕吓死你，天大的消息 was revealed to her) and the heads up of what comes may in the future. Coffee soon i presume!
Monday 310308 - Work, school, and headed back to camp @ 11pm to join my fellow camp mates taking part in the induction of new medics as instructors. Got alot of comments of my newly sewn rank (suggestive body part or double cheeseburger lookalike). Route march, casualty evacuation, and some contact drills pretty much sums it up. By the time we're done it's 7am already. Bathed and opened up my branch and my boss let me off at 11am seeing that i dozed off while registering the patient. This is the first and last time i'm acting as instructor. The gonggong face and confused actions reminds me of my greenhorn times. My service rendered to Navy Medical Service for the past year. My UM course. The old building where i slept in during the course. The bleddy 10 layers of dust and grime. The tekkaning session. The 30cm ruler stand by bed. My medic course. My bmt. All of it, my NS life, shall end in 2mths time. Of course i hope the camaraderie won't end with it, at least not with the Eagles i've gone through thick and thin together all the way from tekong to neesoon and to sembawang till now.
And now, im feeling super groggy. semi spirit walking mode.
school in 4.5 hours time.
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toyee and toyer. toy or be toyed?
i don't know anymore.
my ups and downs is actually more complicated than what i can put in words given my knack for being often loss for words to express myself.
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think of the day not being able to even look at her from afar, kills me.
Of which i need my sleep now.
Saturday 290308 - Met meiz after school and gua sha for a light snack at cck. The lecturer, an Englishman, seriously is way better than the previous petty Scottish one. Not mentioning his Englishman humour too. Wanted to have Pie-Kia, but instead i was owned by the flatterthanwhativeseenbefore blueberry pie.
Sunday 300308 - Met yw after school for brewerkz dinner and it wasn't disappointing, both the companeh and teh food. And of course teh brewz too. Always nice to update each other of recent happenings (of course the 惊天地泣鬼神讲出来不怕吓死你，天大的消息 was revealed to her) and the heads up of what comes may in the future. Coffee soon i presume!
Monday 310308 - Work, school, and headed back to camp @ 11pm to join my fellow camp mates taking part in the induction of new medics as instructors. Got alot of comments of my newly sewn rank (suggestive body part or double cheeseburger lookalike). Route march, casualty evacuation, and some contact drills pretty much sums it up. By the time we're done it's 7am already. Bathed and opened up my branch and my boss let me off at 11am seeing that i dozed off while registering the patient. This is the first and last time i'm acting as instructor. The gonggong face and confused actions reminds me of my greenhorn times. My service rendered to Navy Medical Service for the past year. My UM course. The old building where i slept in during the course. The bleddy 10 layers of dust and grime. The tekkaning session. The 30cm ruler stand by bed. My medic course. My bmt. All of it, my NS life, shall end in 2mths time. Of course i hope the camaraderie won't end with it, at least not with the Eagles i've gone through thick and thin together all the way from tekong to neesoon and to sembawang till now.
And now, im feeling super groggy. semi spirit walking mode.
school in 4.5 hours time.
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toyee and toyer. toy or be toyed?
i don't know anymore.
my ups and downs is actually more complicated than what i can put in words given my knack for being often loss for words to express myself.
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think of the day not being able to even look at her from afar, kills me.
Of which i need my sleep now.