it's just me. it's something i've asked for. or did i?
my sensitivity is at its all time high. maybe i can sense crude oil underground and strike it rich. but i digress.
wo zhui zhu ai, ai que yuan li wo.
wo tao li bei shang, bei shang pian pian huan rao zhe wo.
wo yi jing kai shi hu si luan xiang.
jiu xiang yi qian yi yang.
na ge re ren tao yan de zi ji.
it's the "unexpected friendliness syndrome" again, again, and, again. side effects kicking in. distanced. well i didn't even need to ask/hint/popthequestion before it kicks in.
come to think again, would you reciprocate shrek if you weren't fiona....
i.didn't.think.so.
i'd take it as that. for now.
let me wallow in this bittersweet melancholy and selfpity for sometime.
i needed this to keep what's left of sanity that's been stretched like a taut wire for as long as i appeared as normal.
i'll just back off. for awhile.
just go cold turkey deprived of the thoughts of MA.
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LOL just joking!!! Did i manage to get ya? LOLOLOLOLOL ROFL you must be thinking "he's at it again" LOLOLOLOLOL
=)
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maybe it was a joke from the start to begin with.
Autumns Monologue
Oh why can't I be what you need?
A new improved version of me.
But I'm nothing so good
no, I'm nothing...
just bones, a lonely ghost burning down songs
of violence, of love, and of sorrow.
I beg for just one more tomorrow!
Where you'd hold me down, fold me in
deep deep deep in the heart of your sins.
I'd break in two over you
I'd break in two
and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life!
But you don't see me. You dont.
Here I'm pinned between darkness and light,
bleached and blinded by these nights.
Where I'm tossing and tortured till dawn
by you, visions of you, then you're gone.
The shock bleeds the red from my face,
when i hear someone's taken my place.
How could love be so thoughtless, so cruel?
When all, all that i did was for you...
I'd break in two over you
I'd break in two
and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life!
But you dont see me. You don't.
I'd break in two over you
I'd break in two
and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life!
But you don't see me. You don't.
I'd break in two over you,
I'd break in two over you! Over you
I'd break in two,
I would break in two for you.
Now you see me, now you don't.
Now you need me, now you don't.
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i need to pull myself together if i have the strength at the end.
