No, don't think so much.

It's probably nothing.

Please.

Previously, On Lost.

Came back feeling a little lost, after like a week of back to back toiling day to night and long travellings to and fro.

But somehow I can always can find solace in the smile. Well, cliched, but at this point of time it's a miraculous salvo for me.

One of a quote a friend used for the msn for like forever, is "it's amazing what you can validate when you're smitten".

Don't know how long will it last but I'm gonna need every morsel of such self-rationalised deliverance.

:)

I dreamt a good dream last night and I remembered it.

But it only goes to say it only happens in my dreams.

But it was so real!

Comes fully with the feeling of ease and peacefulness like you're holding onto something so dear.

Dreams, they say, are often the opposite of reality.

Sigh with me.

Issues About Being Around.

Someone told me last night, "this is the perfect song to hold the girl". Probably they are already doing so.

A song which I can't really remember the title. It could of Chris Brown's or Ne-Yo's.

A perfect situation, there I was, and there she was.

The question is, "Why didn't I?"

After some rationalising, I came up with a few plausible explanations:

1) I'm hum chee.
2) I might have been in a daze.
3) I'm too far away.
4) Her friends are watching. Or maybe not.
5) She's chatting with some guy friend.
6) I don't know how.

Or maybe I'd like to know if she feels the same way I do first.

I'm already the kind that engages in excessive thinking to the point of pointless scenario forming. Worst when it comes to such matters and worst still if it's about the girl I think I like.

And more often than not, with such worries constantly in mind, it's got a 100% hit rate of making myself to screw everything up. I have to chill. So far I've been doing things differently and the efforts have shown some minor progress.

I might have made the wrong move by being slightly too honest about myself, a reason that I have to admit is the root of most of the bad things that happened in the past. If there's a reset button that I can press, then I have to make a mental note of not to show too much of this the next time I find the someone.

If this is not working out. But we'll see.

I'll still carry on being around. Hope it's something.

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Tired. Sunday evening blues started a couple of hours ago.

想太多. sigh.

Try

If i walk would you run
If i stop would you come
If i say you're the one would you believe me
If i ask you to stay would you show me the way
Tell me what to say so you don't leave me
The world is catching up to you
While your running away to chase your dream
It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
And maybe i'm not ready

But i'm trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

If i sing you a song would you sing along
Or wait till i'm gone, oh how we push and pull
If i give you my heart would you just play the part
Or tell me it's the start of something beautiful
Am i catching up to you
While your running away, to chase your dreams
It's time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
And maybe i'm not ready

the song i heard yesterday

:))))))))) and an adventure awaits! at bedok! hahaha