Fucking Scared.

Cos' I accepted the job. Cos' "unprecedentedly" they gave me my demands. Cos' the dep director put his weight on it.

Now I'm so fucking jittery. Cos' I thought I've sowed some bad seeds. Which will grow into some man eating plants that will first bite me right at my huge ass.

Now I'm very afraid. Cos' if I don't perform as well as expected, all of these will haunt me throughout my career.

I like the place. The job's for me to explore. The career's for me to build. One step at a 1/100 a time.

2 years. See where I can take myself.

At least there's something to look forward to this Sunday. I am no longer an undergraduate.

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Sin from thy lips

I know it's a girly song but Bitter:Sweet -- Dirty Laundry's sexy arrangement of orchestra, beats and electronica seriously sensuously rocks socks. lyrics aside, i find the rhythm refreshing... ...

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多少不能原谅的错却不能从来过...
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this is seriously pretty new to me. the good the bad the pleasure the guilt.
i'm gonna close my eyes and count to 3.

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i.cant.bear.to.see.how.it.plays.out.