Savvy?

if i have to study
i need the money
i need to work
but i need the study to get work
to get money
then how am i gonna get the money to study without the study to get me work?

holy shit i realised the path i chosen isn't the conventional nor mainstream nor the recognised way.

holy moly i realised i don't know what i want and what i want is what i want anymore.

and my 6.5m dream is gone